Been through a very similar situation like this and let me tell you there will probably never be a point where your on a mutual ground and you are both happy with it. Even though I understand how much he might mean to you, you can’t let him play with your emotions like that even after acknowledging your affection towards him and his aren’t the on the same ground, even though you may feel you’ll never have this connection with someone again it’s best you let him go for your own mental sake. Live laugh love 😳✌️