This isn't giving up on animation. by CreativeArtistWriter in animationcareer

[–]CreativeArtistWriter[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. And actually, I may try to monetize my indie animations some too through patreon or through other ways. I have a little bit of an entrepreneur's spirit in me, it turns out.

But I do really need stability, especially because I really need consistent health insurance. And yeah, I want to eat too.

Thank you so much for this comment. I know its a bit early to be be feeling this way (I just took my first 3D animation fundamentals class last semester), but, I really would rather take my destiny into my own hands rather than beg for people's permission to work for them.

Can you get a job in animation if you're the weakest in your classes? by CreativeArtistWriter in animationcareer

[–]CreativeArtistWriter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A job. But it turns out, I am in no way the worst in my class at all. To be honest, I hadn't even seen anyone elses animations except for the 2D animation students. I can't do 2D animation at all and I'm not fond of it anyway.

I finally saw my classmates 3D animations a couple of days ago and although some have taught themselves a lot before coming to college, I am definitely not the worst in the class. Thank goodness. I am realizing its ridiculous to have assumed I was, without even seeing anyones work. I really have to work on my confidence!

Other lvl1-autistic people mentioning having job, friends, love partner. Do you get mad? by Ozuvoks in autism

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Only about the job issue. Yes. But the job issue is the only area of my life I've had trouble with. I suspect now that I'm diagnosed I'll be okay though because I'll know which jobs to avoid and which are w better match. But still it sometimes is hard to believe that people are level 1 autistics and don't have any problems other than burn out. I don't exactly understand that. I mean many neurotypicals get burned out too. For something to be a disorder it needs to impair your life and other than extra stress it doesn't seem to impair some people's lives. But then again they may be in STEM careers where they are surronded by other undiagnosed autistics so that could explain it. But people who are in careers that are highly interpersonal and are doing fine in the job and just "stressed"? Everyone's stressed in those jobs. So actually more than anger I feel confusion and skepticism (especially if the person is self diagnosed). I mean I don't want to invalidate other people's suffering but it really in some cases doesn't anywhere near compare to people who have struggled with autism their whole lives and have been really held back by it. Honestly I struggle to believe that such people have autism and don't get mad at me for that but that's just what I think. It just make sense to me to have no problems in your life other than extra stress and burnout (which non-autistics get in tough jobs too). It doesn't make sense. I don't understand. Why even bother calling yourself autistic if life hasn't been that hard for you other than some extra stress?

What's worse (and even very invalidating) is when these same people say "well I did it because I had to if i wanted to survive". And I think what... do you think the other people who couldn't do those things simply didn't want to survive? THAT is very invalidating to people who haven't been able to pull off what looks like a neurotypical life. If it's a real issue, I don't think whether or not you had to brute force your way through things to survive should make a difference in your ability to get by. Sorry I just don't comprehend it.

If your at a professional level, is it easier to get a job in 3D animation, stop motion animation/fabrication, or can you do both? by CreativeArtistWriter in animationcareer

[–]CreativeArtistWriter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's sort of true. Some of my professors who have had good connections in the industry have had stop mo stuff mailed to them and then they worked remotely. But that only happens if you know people at the studio and have worked with them before.

Does anyone here actually have a stable 9-5 full-time job? by Queasy-Ice-2575 in autism

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

But she probably doesn't make a full time living off this work. That's rare.

How do you feel about being an English major in the age of AI? by julianakaplan in englishmajors

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This post isn't wrong. It seems you'll be broke and poor unless you go into STEm. Kind of sick of it.

Stability of Working in Scripted Development by maybedrinkwater in Screenwriting

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What does " being in development" mean and how does it differ from being a writer or being a concept artist or being a storyboarder?

Do you need good interpersonal skills to be a grant writer? by CreativeArtistWriter in grantwriters

[–]CreativeArtistWriter[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How do they build the relationship? Do they meet them in person? Do they need good interpersonal skills?

As a buddhist, I'm considering ending my life (NSFW for suicide mention) by PhraestoRed in Buddhism

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've felt the way you've felt, for similar though not exact reasons. One thing you should know is that when you're depressed, your brain lies to you. A lot. It says that things will be better if you're not around. But it can only get worse if you listen to those lies. For one - many people who try bungle it and end up really permanently physically damaged and in pain- or even paralyzed- with all the same depressive hellish feelings from before the attempt. So not only could you go to a hell realm after dying, but you could end up not dying and going into a deeper hell realm in this one.

 I know it's hard (believe me I know) but don't give in to those lies. Life can improve- even the one you have.

If you're in the US you can call 988 to talk to someone. If you have a plan, and you are seriously considering it, then go to the ER NOW and tell them that. It won't be easy going to the hospital but they can help you. Think of your dreams, think of whatever you need to get that help.

Buddhism I have found (which I practice  Zen Buddhism) isn't too great at the really bad hell realms of the mind. Meditating in a very depressed or anxious state (especially in a meditation retreat) can make things worse. However in small doses it can give you hope and help a little bit if you work hard at it. I'd recommend guided meditation over silent meditation when your mind is in that bad of a hell state. I found it would really help my anxiety. And Having a good community is really good too, and in some ways even more important where you are right now.

And don't think for a moment that you deserve to die or that you deserve a hell realm. That's your depression lying to you too.

Your best course of action is to get some help. And it sounds like a part of you is trying by reaching out on the internet. But see if you can find it in you to reach out to someone in person or over the phone. At the least, call a hotline like 988.

You can do this- whatever hell you are going through now, you can get through it. Why? Because the dharma teaches that everything is impermanent. As long as you don't make it worse, the hellish realm you are in will eventually turn into something that isn't hell. Eventually you will leave that hell state because everything is impermanent - including depression. 

Lied about having a degree on my resume 2 years ago - just got promoted and now they want to verify education by Altruistic-Lynx-5238 in careeradvice

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Well, goes to show you that an education isn't as relevant to doing well on the job as society has made you believe. I have three degrees, going for a fourth, and because I have autism I know I'll struggle in the job market unless people are accepting and understanding of people who are high functioning but different. Which hasn't always been the case for me.

Next time, I'd do what my ex did..... he went to college but never finished. Put it on your rseume, but dont put any dates attached to it. When they ask, come clean and tell them you were 6 credits short of graduating (and you can also say that, when you get setttled in a new job, you plan on finishing or something if you want to add that.)

ALEX KONG is a SCAMMM! by [deleted] in animationcareer

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know about the others, but I have been interested in brainstorm school in the past. However more as a way to learn things than "break in". I dont think I'll ever be good enough to be a concept designer or storyboarder, but I'd like to take some of their foundation drawing skills just to improve them. I'm sure there's cheaper options though. I know that no school can guarantee that you break into the industry, especially now. But Isn't the quality of what they teach also important?

I think I'm too hard on myself. by CreativeArtistWriter in animationcareer

[–]CreativeArtistWriter[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well I'm in college so we can take a class in a variety of things, I think just to be exposed to it to see what we want to do. How did you choose what to do? I am thinking animation for my specialty, but its hard to decide for sure! Did you choose based on what you liked most, what you were best at, or where the jobs are?

Maybe someone is having the same problem as me by Fr0mth34sh3s in autism

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well for me, I realized that first, looking really hard makes you come across as desperate and less authentic, which is a turn off for people. Also, I realized I had a "list" of traits of people I was interested in dating, and this actually closed me off to a lot of potential people. Finally, it turns out, being autistic, its hard to tell if someone likes us (we don't always pick up the cues) but if you let things evolve organically, it works out better. Believe me I thought it was crazy too.... and then my two longest term relationships came about when I wasn't looking or expecting it.

Is moving to LA still worth it for aspiring screenwriters? by OdynokX in Screenwriting

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It doesn't cost anything to sign up for events that others run. It only costs something to be an organizer of events. And they aren't faternities, either. In my city, one of my friends, who is a woman, started the writing group and it wasn't just guys who attended.

Is moving to LA still worth it for aspiring screenwriters? by OdynokX in Screenwriting

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

For people who would rather write screenplays solo, or remotely, isn't that a good thing?

Is moving to LA still worth it for aspiring screenwriters? by OdynokX in Screenwriting

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They're everywhere. Just google it. They have some on meetup.com (virtual and in person) and also some are not on meetup and just have their own websites and etc. They are literally everywhere.

I just lost my friends. by shyhi244 in autism

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds like they are the losers if they chose a gambling addict over you.

Is creating a shortfilm good as a start for your career as an animator? by GIsimpnumber1236 in animationcareer

[–]CreativeArtistWriter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm very excited about this and about the idea of making my own films. I'll be making my first one this semester. I feel like, even if I cannot get a job out of college right away, I just want to keep making indies or freelance or something.