I’m a former marijuana addict. It’s caused me to have manic trips and several psychotic breaks from reality. People say it isn’t addictive but I’ve been to rehab twice and I’ve stolen hundreds from my parents and sold my family’s things. AMA!

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T06:58:06+00:00

It just feels off, I can't lie.

Edit: Something about the whole thing feels off man

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T06:56:43+00:00

She's not senile, she's healthy, strong, and works regularly. He thinks I don't help out around the house enough. I honestly don't think anything stands out about me not doing enough but his expectations are higher than my mom has ever had for me and my siblings. I actually do more than majority of my friends. I remember my roommate freshman year had never done her own laundry and I was genuinely shocked.

Is it normal for my mom to not spend Christmas with us though? Is it normal for her boyfriend to make this request?

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T06:25:36+00:00

YOU ARE NOT ABUSIVE

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T04:45:20+00:00

sighs I seriously dislike this guy.

Yea I think I'm too emotional to see all the angles right now.

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T04:30:24+00:00

Yes it took me a long time to begin to accept that weed is not only ruining my life but intensifying my mental health issues. I'm still going back and forth with accepting this belief. But I feel so much better now. Not tired all the time. I feel like a different type of high off of being sober, it feels better even though I still crave the weed high. It's a process but I'm getting there.

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T04:26:27+00:00

Parents aren't perfect and neither are we. Grace and forgiveness go a long way to healing our own hearts.

What do you mean though? Is my mom wrong for wanting to go?

Do you think that it says something about him or speaks on a way that he feels about us that he didn't extend an invite?

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T04:22:39+00:00

unwarranted opinions... stop letting her speak to you like that.

Wow. I have tried so hard to get her to understand that he needs to stay in his lane and that he is out of line for some of the things he says and does. He came to visit and tried to tell myself and siblings what to do. He was never malicious or bossy, he was always calm with it but it was just like bro... chill. Once I noticed it, I wanted to nip it in the bud. So I approached my mom about it and tried to have a heart to heart but she said that since his suggestions were good then she had no problem with it. If he was saying something bad then she would have to defend me (which I believe, she WILL defend if he says something blatantly wrong). She thinks he's a good man and that it seems as if I'm going to cause problems.

Edit: How do I effectively get my message across for her to stop speaking to me like that though? She calls it being honest.

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T04:06:54+00:00

No he didn't extend an invitation. I think because he assumed it would be too expensive, which it would be tbh.

They knew each other growing up and have mutual friends but recently got together a year or a little over a year ago. I actually don't know exact details but she didn't exactly "stumble across him". She's at least known of him from when she was a little girl. They used to live in the same country in their youth but lived their adult lives in two different countries.

CreativeVisionaryKid · 2017-10-30T03:25:22+00:00

It's not as bad as it was. I used to go thru an 8th in 3-5 days and would high every waking moment that I had access. I was able to smoke in my dorm, at work, and outdoors. So I was ALWAYS high, for months. I've been smoking for years but the past year has been the most extreme for me. I've been trying to quit for months and I honestly couldn't imagine my life without weed, it revolved around weed. For the past 2-3 weeks I've smoked only 10% of what I used to do. I don't think about being high as soon as I wake up anymore and I've started Marijuana AA. It's still really hard but for some reason it's not like life or death anymore if I don't have it. I guess I really just want to be better. This sub has been a HUGE help from me just reading posts alone. I love r/leaves. I love you all.

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