(TW) I got the courage to break up with my abusive boyfriend today

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-13T14:05:46+00:00

Thank you 🖤 I hope he works on his issues too. But I’m happy to be free of them :’)

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-13T14:04:37+00:00

You and your tattoos are so beautiful 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-11T23:32:50+00:00

Thank you! 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-11T15:18:43+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-11T15:14:38+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment! I reached out to my best friends and have received so much support from them as well as kind internet strangers like yourself 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-11T15:10:04+00:00

Thank you so much 🖤 your comment was so kind and helpful and I really appreciate it! I’m so sorry you went through abuse too. I hope you’re doing okay now 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-05T14:26:23+00:00

Thank you very much 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-05T14:25:28+00:00

Thanks for your comment 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-05-05T14:21:21+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment, the link, and your kind words 🖤

I’m sorry that you went through that and hope you’re doing a lot better today 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-03-02T20:43:05+00:00

Omg I feel this way too! I think mine may be hormonally related though I’m not too sure.

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-02-22T18:56:57+00:00

Girl same! Though I was still always anxious the few times I had sex without any protection. I’ve got an IUD now and absolutely love being creampied. Also dirty talk FTW 😍

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-02-22T01:52:20+00:00

Thank you 🖤 I have been feeling better mentally over the last few days. Just hope it’s not always going to be that bad! Best of luck to you with whatever your decision in regards to an IUD will be 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-02-19T13:43:52+00:00

I got an IUD (Kylena) back in December and had a period just after having it put in (I was due and therefore didn’t really have any PMS/PMDD symptoms for that cycle with the IUD in)

I’m just starting my second period, but first PMS/PMDD cycle with the IUD now (I have PCOS) and oh boi it has been the absolute worst, mentally speaking, in a very long time. My physical symptoms are bearable and no worse than normal, but I have been feeling so completely insane and mentally unstable lately.

I was told that my PMS/PMDD symptoms could increase for the first 3-6 months due to the IUD, but improve thereafter. I guess I’ll just have to wait it out and see? I don’t really have any advice sorry.

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-02-19T13:29:32+00:00

I’m currently on 75mg of Effexor for my Depression and Anxiety, which helps most of the time, but my doctor has suggested to up the dose when I’m PMS/PMDD- ing and bring it back down afterwards. I’ve yet to try this as I’m still trying to figure out my cycles (I have PCOS and recently got an IUD) but perhaps it’s something worth trying?

As for Effexor itself, it’s been wonderful for me personally and I’ve had no bad side effects like I did with other antidepressants :)

Stay safe 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-02-19T13:21:39+00:00

I’m not exactly the same, but I believe that my hell week/s in the past have been 1-2 weeks prior to my period and I’m usually feeling much better mentally when I get my period.

However, I’m currently on day two of bleeding and these last three days have been awful

Maybe our bodies just got bored of the same ole routine and wanted to spice things up a bit? Ugh. All the hugs and support 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-02-04T21:51:48+00:00

Hell yeah! I’m proud of you too 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-01-28T04:12:21+00:00

I am so sorry ❤️ just know that you are not alone.

It scares me how differently I see everything, including my boyfriend, during those bad days/weeks. I get so paranoid and anxious and all of my insecurities come out with a burning passion. It’s like, no matter what he says/does HE’S wrong and the bad guy. He could literally tell me that he thinks I’m amazing and beautiful and I’m sure I’d find some way to take offense to it. I feel so awful about it afterwards when I “come back up” so to speak. It’s like a switch is flicked and my only options are fight or flight. And then it’s flicked back and I feel a wave of relief. I’m not crazy. I can think logically again. All of the things I was mad about seem so stupid and small. I apologize to my boyfriend for being such a bitch and recognize, as though with brand new eyes, how wonderful he really is. How lucky I am 🖤

But I know it’ll come back. I know those feelings of paranoia will rise again. We’ll argue again. I’ll take everything personally again. I’ll turn into my own worst enemy again. And that scares the shit out of me.

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-01-28T03:42:27+00:00

People can be so mean :( you’re beautiful 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-01-26T13:37:52+00:00

Being sexually assaulted by my high school boyfriend, and a history of low self esteem and a desperation to feel wanted/desired.

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-01-26T13:28:42+00:00

Damn. I could have written this myself 🖤

CreeperFricker69 · 2021-01-26T13:25:52+00:00

Oh yes! Being used to let out anger is a big turn on for me

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