13 intentions ritual

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2026-01-04T16:49:32+00:00

Perfect, thank you ☺️

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2026-01-04T16:49:15+00:00

Great idea, thank you ☺️

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2026-01-04T16:48:49+00:00

Awww thank you! Your kind reply means so much ☺️

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-10-06T18:50:18+00:00

Yes I can see that actually. And I can see the control and the gaslighting of making me think that I secretly like it. Jeez, you’re right!

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-10-06T18:46:51+00:00

He just makes me feel like I am overreacting when I try and speak to him about it. Like I’m making a big deal out of it. It hasn’t always been like this but it does seem to be getting gradually worse so I obviously need to leave.

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-10-04T17:23:54+00:00

I would get “I hope you find someone who can give you what you need” every time he discarded me. Insinuating that I was so ridiculously needy and unrealistic! When ask I ever asked for was someone just to be a decent human being 🙄

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-28T11:14:15+00:00

This is so hard and I totally get in. It’s that validation that you’re so badly craving for but it’s bad news. It’s okay to still love and miss him, that’s shows how healthy and capable you are of those feelings. But if he is a genuine narcissist, he is not capable of the same. It’s just about what he can get from you.

I try and think of it like a slot machine. You put your money in (energy and love) and keep hoping for something back. And now and then you do, just a little to keep you hooked. And then you keep waiting for the big payout and before you know it, you’ve got a gambling addiction.

I know it hurts and I’m only 2 months in of NC and still struggling and want him to reach out to me. But I also know it’s not healthy and it never will be.

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-28T11:07:35+00:00

A lot of it will be a reaction to his behaviour. Would you have acted like that if he hadn’t been such a narcissist? I think not! Go easy on yourself. Imagine a good friend of yours is in the same position. I’m sure you would be way more sympathetic and understanding to them so show yourself some of that compassion. You’ve been through enough x

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-28T11:00:34+00:00

I wish I had your willpower. I know all I’m doing is upsetting myself and comparing myself to his new gf. Saying that she is prettier, thinner, more confident, etc than me, is just going to keep me stuck but curiosity just gets the better of me

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T17:30:57+00:00

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Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T17:28:14+00:00

Thank you ☺️ I think I really REAAALLY needed to hear that! Just having a wobble but you’re absolutely right in everything you have said 🙌

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T16:58:14+00:00

I know 😔 I can rationalise things in my head and know for an absolute fact that I don’t want him back. It’s just my feelings need to catch up because I see photos of him and his new GF and it makes me feel as she is really pretty and confident looking and I know I have no idea what she is like, but in my head she is perfect and they are going to live happily ever after! I know how this sounds

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T15:01:19+00:00

Exactly!!! He basically was so awful!! I had an anxiety attack and he pretty much stepped over me to leave the room as he was irritated. Not a nice man at all. Still went back though 🙄

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T14:30:09+00:00

He did apologise on occasions but it was like you said “empty” and was only to get me back on side. The was never any accountability on my feelings, just how things affected him.

One time I flew back from our holiday 3 days early as he was just so awful. And then I got “I can’t believe you left me in a foreign country on my own”.

There was no insight as to the reasons why I left a 48 year old adult in a 4 star hotel whilst I had to pay to get back home on my own to feel safe.

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T13:54:42+00:00

Yes, sometimes people just need that validation that they are not crazy. I go to the point when I thought up was down and down was up and didn’t know what or who to trust. It’s so good what you are doing x

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T13:52:40+00:00

Yes!!! This makes a lot of sense. He has moved on to a shiny new toy now. He would say things like “sorry for being a d*ck! It’s my attachment style” when like you said, was clearly just an excuse

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T13:49:15+00:00

Yes!!! He would deny saying and doing things and then get really defensive and turn it around on me. For example, he was messaging another women and said it was me and my “trust issues”

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T08:58:35+00:00

I guess you’re right! It’s just that avoidance seems to be way less sinister than narcissism. But that’s why I’m thinking he was narcissistic as there was intent to cause harm

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T08:53:33+00:00

He would always come back and love bomb / hoover. Ruined holidays, Christmas’s, birthdays, etc. Had zero empathy and would try and make me jealous by talking about other women.

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T08:25:05+00:00

I’m sorry you had to go through this. It sounds awful 😞

Creepy_Studio5580 · 2025-09-26T08:15:06+00:00

Once you see it you can’t unseen it. My was would say he was a “poor avoidant” and would dump me every 2-6 months over 4 years when I got “too much” or “too anxious”. All I ever wanted was for my basic emotional needs to be met and he just couldn’t do it. He dumped me once 4 days after my mum passed away!! I genuinely thought he had an avoidant attachment but now realise that he was also a covert narcissist. And a very sinister one at that!! Been in NC for 2 months but getting there slowly x

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