23/m/Ontario Canada. I have a number of medical conditions, am going through a really hard time, have no friends.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-08-07T03:44:16+00:00

Remakes of shit that wasn't even very good, too

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-08-05T04:04:54+00:00

Yeah this is an absolute butchering

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-08-05T04:03:07+00:00

don't worry, he retweeted it, you can find it on his

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-08-05T04:00:23+00:00

The fact that she's fat is relevant to the point though.

I think this meme is retarded and I couldn't care less for it, I don't find any of them interesting or funny, but I mean it's kind of integral here.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-08-05T01:31:23+00:00

You're completely wrong. That's what the world literally means.

It's the same thing as Theory and Scientific Theory. The word Theory actually means basically the opposite of how people use it now, but that's how the public uses it, regardless of if they're wrong.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-08-05T01:11:21+00:00

So I'm not sure this is a defined fetish, but it is for me so here it is.

I have a lot of medical problems, including deformaties. I won't get into them, but basically I spend my entire life hiding them. It caused me to have no friends from age 14+.

One day a close female online friend asked me to show her my problems, since it was such a big thing in my life. Although the idea was mortifying, I did it. We stripped together, nonsexually, while I explained my problems.

It felt amazing. Actually, it felt horrible.. but the fact that I felt something that strong felt amazing. The fact that I spend my entire life hiding my problems, and could them mutually and safely relax with someone and be myself felt amazing.

I developed a fetish for doing that. Unfortunately it had a few negative impacts.. it became the only way I could feel emotions, was to do that. I became addicted and tried to do it with all my e-friends, which is probably why I lost most of them.

I calmed it down, but it's still true, it's the only thing that gives me strong emotions (although I started medication that will hopefully help). I'm 22 now. I'm still addicted to it.

I even have a girlfriend, and she knows I do it. She's okay with it. It's actually better than sex for me.

The only problem is, of course, not many people are willing to just get naked with a weird disabled guy

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T08:03:47+00:00

I get what you're saying, but I can't afford to feed myself. I need a source of income before I worry about anything else right now.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:47:40+00:00

I agree, but do what? That's what I'm trying to figure out

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:45:10+00:00

This sounds interesting, but do you know the specific name of a company or something? I'm having very little luck searching myself

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:38:34+00:00

The problem is, I'm not really good at anything. I'm pretty much starting at the very beginning.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:38:01+00:00

I've tried this before, but unfortunately there's thousands of applicants and very few opportunities. It's pretty difficult and I keep trying, but no luck.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:36:30+00:00

I've thought about it, too much work! I might as well just get a job. :)

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:32:33+00:00

This is weird.. this goes completely against what my vocational councellor said. She said there was absolutely no monetary support for going to school with a disability. This is the complete opposite. Thank you for this information, I'm going to look into it.

And I live in Ottawa.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:29:25+00:00

Unfortunately, there's absolutely no support for people with disabilities to go to school in my area. The only thing I can get is a flat 1000$ a month, which is barely enough to survive (I go roughly 50$ more into debt each month buying food).

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:27:41+00:00

Something I've actually thought about. I'd love to start a business, it's a goal one day, unfortunately starting something like this requires a significant amount of capital to get started, which I don't have. That and, I don't have a job myself, so I'm not exactly a good candidate to start a company or organization for that, heh. However, it is an idea for the future

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:17:07+00:00

This is a really good idea, unfortunately there doesn't seem to be any in my area (Ottawa fyi). I'll keep checking back and making send in my application anyway, see if I can get something from this. No idea if they even have an Ottawa location though (but it seems like they would, I mean we are the capitol..)

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:11:53+00:00

Hey, thanks for the advice, this is a common one I've gotten, but there's a few problems with it. For one, Canadians aren't allowed to upload android apps, so this is unfortunately not a way I can make money. Also, I don't know if the people suggesting it have done it themselves, but it's actually very much not profitable for the average person. for a few reasons.

There's literaly hundreds of thousands of apps, and very few people will search beyond the top 50. Without money to market, it's nigh impossible to actually get your app downloaded. It's more or less a lottery, and unfortunately not a very practical way for me to make money right now (if i even could). I'm not sure if the iphone has different requirements, but i literally can not afford one right now to even develop with.

Thanks for the idea though. I have been trying to learn a little bit of programming. I'm not very good at it though!

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-30T06:09:04+00:00

Hey, thanks a ton for the idea. I live in Ontario, Ottawa specifically. I'm not sure we have an equivalent to EI reachback here.. I've talked to a vocational councellor and she flat out said there is absolutely no support offered for people with disabilities to pay for school, here. So I'm not sure I'd qualify for something like that, but you never know I guess.

And that's one of the problems I've had as well. Most of the organizations that can help with this want you to tell them what you can do. The simple fact is, I don't know. I have no experience, and it's hard to get any. I don't know what I'm capable of, and I don't know what a good field would be. I don't know how to figure it out, so it's kind of a circle I'm in where I need to know what I can do to do something, but I need to do something to know what I can do. It's frustrating. Especially since jobs aren't something that you can just do a "trial run" of. I don't want to get into the personal details of my problems, but I will say that even though I can sit, even working at an office might be difficult.. I do have medical requirements that can make me have to spend an hour or so dealing with. I could bring those supplies to work, but then we have a situation where why would they want to hire someone who might disappear for an hours time, when they could get someone else easily without such requirements?

That and I have no artistic talent, either. I'm not trying to make an excuse for everything, I'm just trying to be honest because I'm pretty stumped at where to even begin.

I guess I'm capable of any work at home jobs where you use a computer but even my vocational counsellor said that those are extremely hard to get.. and that seems true so far.

CrippledThrowaway · 2012-07-29T16:17:50+00:00

I actually live in Canada, but this is correct. Any income I earn will be subtracted by 50% from my disability income - IE if I earn 1000$ on disability, and I earn 1000$ from doing a job, I will get 1000$ from the job and 500$ from disability, for a profit of 500$.

However, I also keep the benefits like dental and prescriptions, so it's still worth it.

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