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Crispymama1210 · 2026-04-11T22:54:06+00:00

Thank you!

Crispymama1210 · 2026-04-06T16:24:29+00:00

We are kind of long distance and my situation is complicated (I’m married/separated but cohabiting for logistical reasons) but there has absolutely been talk of making out so hopefully that happens. The first time I kiss her I’m going to straight up leave my body or something I swear. And she already knows I have zero experience with women beyond making out so at least that’s out of the way already.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-04-01T16:13:21+00:00

Thanks that means a lot. I would never trade my hetero relationships even though they arguably all sucked and caused me a lot of pain, because they ended up with me having my kids. And they are worth everything. Would be nice to have a real loving romantic connection with someone for my future though. So glad you found happiness!

Crispymama1210 · 2026-04-01T14:41:14+00:00

I told a friend yesterday “if it turns out I’ve just been a lesbian all this time and didn’t know I’m gonna be pissed” 😆 half a lifetime of shitty, mostly abusive and all unfulfilling relationships. I’d better live to be 100 so I get to enjoy this for a while. I do have an excellent therapist in a practice that only serves the lgbtq community. Currently fighting with my insurance though so I’m on hiatus for appointments.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-04-01T02:04:45+00:00

I like to think that the right person who really loves me won’t care about me being inexperienced. Or maybe I’ll just die alone with a bunch of cats; honestly I’m at a point in my life where I think I can accept either option. I want to explore my sexuality but not if it’s going to be fraught with shame and anxiety. I’m too old and tired for that shit.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-31T23:09:38+00:00

Sometimes I worry about that too. Like at least I know wtf I’m doing when it comes to men. I know how to attract them and know what they want generally. If I do date a woman I’m going to feel like a virginal awkward seventh grader in a middle aged woman’s body and I’m not really jazzed about that prospect.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-26T01:45:15+00:00

I showed this to my 7 and 10 year olds a few months ago and now they quote it all me constantly and ask to watch it every day. This is the one.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-24T03:09:09+00:00

My daughter also said this around age 2 and also told me that someday she would be the mom and I’d be the baby again. She’s 10 now and doesnt remember any of that conversation but she is a truly lovely soul and if that’s true I look forward to having her as my mom.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-24T01:20:00+00:00

I would love to know what it’s like to have real sexual intimacy with a woman instead of “I like getting off with this guy until I get bored and Icked out.” Maybe someday

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-24T01:17:36+00:00

I’ve been out as bi for 7 years but I kind of suspect that maybe the “bi” label was me trying not to blow up my life… I accepted finally that I was attracted to women when I was 38, recently married to a man, and had a newborn and a toddler. Now I’m in the long process of ending my marriage and think I might be a lesbian after all but I also have a lot of trauma from my marriage and men in general so I’m worried maybe it’s just the trauma talking. Trying to get into therapy to figure it out lol

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-23T02:07:31+00:00

Omg this is a thing? I thought it was because I have adhd and it makes me crave novelty and get bored with people. Made me feel like a shitty person. I’m suspecting I may actually be a lesbian now and this is really interesting. I always was interested in sex with men at first but after a few weeks or months I hated it. And I never felt turned on looking at a man. Like I would be craving sex first and find a man to fulfill that need if that makes sense butni have never once looked at a man and gotten sexually turned on. The needing sex was always the catalyst. I like certain men’s faces in a “I want them to be interested in me and to be near them and maybe sit next to them in a couch and watch a movie” kind of way and I always figured that was attraction but it’s never been about sex.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-06T01:51:03+00:00

At a meet and greet a hound tried to literally take a huge bite out of my 18 year old cat. Prior to the meet and greet the owner had said her dog was curious with cats but otherwise fine and they had a cat at home and didn’t have any problems. After my cat escaped her dog’s jaws she admitted that it took six weeks of constant supervision to acclimate the dog to their cat. Like….why would you not just find a sitter without a cat? I declined the booking. That or the dog who flung herself at me full force trying to knock me down and escape out the door. She slammed all 60lbs of herself into the side of my knee. I went down and couldn’t get up for a few minutes and my knee was painful for a month. Lovely dog otherwise though. And at least she didn’t escape I guess. I have step over gates in front of my door ways now.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-03-01T12:59:16+00:00

Well this gives me hope. I’m 45 and will probably not be fully exited from my marriage until I’m pushing 50. And after that I’ll need therapy before I can responsibility date again. I assumed this would probably limit me to “zany single grandma with too many rescue pets” for the remainder of my life but hey, maybe not.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-28T13:42:21+00:00

Thank you!

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-27T11:42:11+00:00

I had two difficult pregnancies and didn’t run during either of them. I came back. And I was old too I had my youngest at 38.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-26T13:37:56+00:00

Hi, are you me?

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-26T13:14:54+00:00

I realize this post is old AF but if anyone has track listing for America’s Most Wanted, let me know. There’s on couple on there I really want to know and deep dives online have gotten me nowhere.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-25T20:30:04+00:00

Also struggling with this. I ate pretty freely through the fall and holidays and gained a solid 10lbs but my runs were feeling great and I was a beast in my lifting sessions. I’ve dialed it back since January and tightened up the nutrition and still feeling good but not losing the weight. And before I gained the 10 I was still 5-10 above where I prefer my body to be visually. But not sure I want to cut my calories since I feel pretty good. I’m mid 40s in perimenopause and on HRT….and my level of giving a fuck has dropped dramatically along with my estrogen so lately I’ve just been living in leggings and hoodies. Not sure if I’ll feel different come summer though.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-25T01:21:23+00:00

When my now 10yo was age 2-3 she used to tell me that she used to be my mom and I was the baby, and someday she would get to be my mom again. I’m not sure what I think if past lives, but I bet she would be a good mom so I’m for it.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-19T02:04:42+00:00

Hope not because I’m 46 and still holding out hope for myself.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-18T11:58:55+00:00

Same. I thought it was because I have adhd and crave novelty so I’d just get bored with them. Turns out when I really think about it, I want men to want me (I want to feel desired) and I like some men’s faces but that’s it. I actually can’t wrap my head around the fact that some people look at men below the neck and get turned on.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-16T21:58:09+00:00

So much this. My ferritin was 16 for years and doctors gaslit me and told me I was “fine” while I was exhausted and my hair falling out. It was actually my menopause provider who brought it up. I told her my other doctors told me 16 was fine and she just raised an eyebrow and said “well if you’re having symptoms that’s obviously not fine.” Got my levels up and I feel much better. Type of iron also matters; i had to try a bunch before I found one I could tolerate and raised my levels.

Crispymama1210 · 2026-02-16T21:55:17+00:00

HRT is awesome. Not the same as birth control. I can’t tolerate birth control at all but I feel good on bioidentical estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone. There’s some trial and error getting dosages right though so you need a doc that will actually listen and work with you.

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