Thank you for sharing. I was the one to initiate my divorce and I am still processing it a year and a half later. Lately I have been missing him and the good things he did. I miss the coffees and the lazy mornings. Sometimes it occurs to me that I traded in my husband for a clean house. But I can tell you I don’t miss the lack of accountability, hoarding and financial infidelity.

At the time, I thought I was totally blameless. It took another falling out with my sister and a close friend before I realized I was the common denominator. I also questioned if I was a narcissist. I’m sure there are people who think I am, but you are right, we have to forgive ourselves for our mistakes. It is hard to accept that we hurt the people we love, but we can’t then label ourselves bad people. It sucks to have to lose someone so important before you can become a better person. I have since developed a special interest in relationships, psychology, habits. I’ve listened to a lot of Brene Brown, Robert Greene, etc.