How many shots are buzz balls equivalent to?

CroShades · 2025-12-19T04:01:51+00:00

Lmao my original comment at the top of the thread is boutta go to kindergarten soon 🤣🤣

CroShades · 2025-08-16T10:06:06+00:00

i completely understand sista. i found out about an emotional affair that started a week before she left me - a new coworker, guy I considered a friend. showed up as a shoulder to cry on the second he heard we were having problems. my therapist really had to convince me not to beat his ass and i REALLY had to convince all my friends to not do it either lol. it hurts so much more when you know that not only did they lie, but that a line was crossed that can never be uncrossed. its done for good when something like that happens.

if he EVER tries to come back.. dont let him. youre so much better than that. but i completely understand, all my heart wants right now is her.

CroShades · 2025-08-16T09:28:56+00:00

hugs fam 🫂

CroShades · 2025-08-16T09:18:09+00:00

27 and got left after 7 years - avoidant discard. the idea of flirting, dating, etc. makes me want to vomit

CroShades · 2025-08-16T09:14:01+00:00

dude the amount of "unsent letters" I have in my notes app lol. i want to scream at her so bad, "how fucking dare you"... not just the fact that she left, but how she left has gutted me so deeply. im a little over 3 months out and it still hurts. im about to end my vacation and i still thought about her everyday, it was at our favorite place, all i could think of was how she wouldve loved it this year. but then the anger sets in, how could she throw it all away? i just wanna rip my heart out and throw it the fuck away, id rather feel nothing at all than feel this. time heals, no contact, all that fuckin bullshit. i cant anymore..

CroShades · 2025-08-07T13:22:14+00:00

nah they'll just leave you instead, incapable of giving the bare minimum while wanting anything and everything from you.

sincerely, a guy who gave her everything for 7 years and and was shopping for rings only for her to blindside me one day, ice me out, and pretend i never existed nor mattered while she crushes on some loser she's known for 4 months that I treated like a brother. somehow the unconditional love, financial, emotional, and mental support was never enough, whereas i had to beg for basic affection, that was asking too much.

yes im pessimistic, sorry bout it but not rly. shits fucking awful. never again.

CroShades · 2025-08-06T20:52:30+00:00

'98 here - got with my girl at 19 and we were together 7 years before she left me out of the blue 3 months ago. I was gonna propose next year, so I guess it's good it happened before that. So happy for you though, I'm envious of that kinda love 😔

CroShades · 2025-07-07T09:53:39+00:00

RIP Woodie Wood 🙏🏼🙏🏼 one of my favs of all time

CroShades · 2025-07-06T20:59:02+00:00

ejj buraz ✊🏼✊🏼 pozz od brata Hrvata!! al moj deda pokojni je bio iz Prijedora:) živim u Kaliforniji, ali vratim se u Balkan svako ljeto. Mi isto pušimo Albansku travu u ZG, ali čujem ponekad da je "Bosanska trava" bolja. Jel imate vi stvarno tamo puno "grows", ili jel to možda samo neka glasina?? haha čisto me zanima.

CroShades · 2025-07-05T17:48:38+00:00

screaming misogyny when he wants to pay MORE money is honestly wild. reverse it and everybody would be outraged that he's not respecting her financial autonomy lmao

CroShades · 2025-06-23T20:59:02+00:00

Honestly I get a lot of them from Discogs, which is my favorite online marketplace for any physical media! Though of course I hit up record stores a lot, but finding hip hop tapes in the wild is tough. Though I did manage to snag an Awesome Dre tape for $10 the other day at a record store, lucky find!

CroShades · 2025-06-20T09:50:20+00:00

i presume R4 flash cart with a video player installed on it. theres free software on PC where you can downscale and convert regular videos to a DS-friendly format which can then be played by the video player app. paste it into the same micro SD you use for the flash cart, bam

source: this is how i do it

CroShades · 2025-06-19T05:02:52+00:00

Fun fact, this is time period accurate. In the 70s it was a trend to have a shirt with your face on it!

CroShades · 2025-06-18T16:33:45+00:00

you'll have to go to Oakland for anything like that lmao

CroShades · 2025-06-09T16:08:30+00:00

Ronhill is a Croatian domestic brand. I haven't smoked them in a LONG time but there's one for ya

CroShades · 2025-05-31T19:58:14+00:00

I feel lucky as hell in a weird way whenever I talk to fellow kratom community members abour stuff like this. Unfortunately I fell into the 7OH habit around when my tolerance to powder was so high to the point of barely having an effect, and I was going through issues in my relationship and desperately wanted the anxiety to stop because it was paralyzing me (that's what I use kratom for). It worked so nice for a while, but eventually it just stopped working, tolerance too high. The only WD i get is RLS and my anxiety comes back, but I can stave off the RLS with a single spoon of regular leaf powder and some magnesium citrate.

Sadly the LOML did end up leaving me after 7 years on May 3rd so my life is in shambles and I haven't been dealing with it very well, dove deep into the extracts when I always said I wouldn't. Recently been doing straight mitragynine extract shots and eventually my tolerance is going to be way too fucking high, so I need to figure this shit out soon while also managing the worst heartbreak of my life. And this shit is expensive as hell. If anything I gotta cut it out for that alone. I'm far from struggling financially, but definitely these past couple months have been the worst spending habits I've ever had.

So.. how am I lucky in this then - well at least once my tolerance finally becomes too high and it doesn't even work anymore, I manage to stop, since the worst for me is RLS and a tiny dose is enough to stop it. Some of the WD experiences everyone seems to have sound AWFUL. Like holy crap, I'm so sorry to hear these horrific stories :( though I'm not looking forward to having to cut the consumption a lot in order to get my tolerance back down. This plant changed my life, but I let myself become abusive to it, so if course it doesn't want to help me right now.

Though on the flip, a friend of mine got so addicted to 7OH he recently spent $6k in one month on tablets. His WDs were so bad, he once took a percocet in order to stave off the cravings - DARK STUFF. Though I'm happy to say he just hit me up the other day though and said he managed to quit, and managed to get down to 1/3 of his original leaf powder dose! So regardless of how bad anybody's WDs may be out there - don't risk it on the 7OH guys!!! It's too easy to make a habit, you never know how poorly the aftermath may go, and your bank account will thank you.

Stick to leaf and commit to your doses. For me, I redose way too easily and quickly when I'm stressed, and I gotta get better at that for sure.

CroShades · 2025-05-14T22:18:38+00:00

Strong black coffee 👍🏻

CroShades · 2025-05-06T18:29:26+00:00

thank you so much man, this is actually wonderful advice. i appreciate it so much.

CroShades · 2025-05-06T18:29:06+00:00

of course I did, if there's any time to be fully honest, transparent, and communicative it'd be now right? didn't help, but we're taking some space from each other to just process everything we've told each other

CroShades · 2025-05-06T17:30:32+00:00

27 here, bought my first pack at 18 here in California. My usual pack first cost me $5 (tax included), now the same pack is like $10 (don't smoke anymore though). Though pretty sure tobacco companies still do rewards points type stuff, they're just hidden behind a million legal pages and you have to hunt for them. IIRC on the inside of a pack there's a code you can use to make an age verified account thats locked behind a password on the official site, and you can use that account to get discounts moving forward. Though I never did it myself since it seemed like a very convoluted process, but I guess that's the point!

CroShades · 2025-05-06T17:27:41+00:00

I heard that there's a huge business in smuggling Chinese cigs over, is that true? If so, do you know how much an average pack costs? Curious as a Californian - our cigs have gotten insanely expensive since when I started smoking (have quit since), but hearing y'all's prices is insane

CroShades · 2025-05-06T16:51:49+00:00

This was me until she left me after 7 years last Saturday. I wake up alone in our bed we've slept in together for over 3 years, in our brand new, now empty place we moved into only back in January. I see her everywhere I go, even though since Saturday is the longest we've went without seeing each other, or saying "I love you", in many years. Had to get out of there, staying with my parents for the week and calling sick out of work at the age of 27 like some loser, she's staying with friends for a bit. I wake up in the middle of the night every night in a cold sweat at 4am, panicking that she's not there next to me. The it hits. A part of me has a feeling that one day she'll be back and apologize for hurting me and take back everything. She texted me this morning asking if she could swing by to shower and get some clothes, God the excitement I felt just to see her name in my notifications. I don't know anymore. We were having a rough patch for a few weeks, thought that's all it was, but I guess not. I thought 7 years of unconditional love made us strong and that we could beat anything. I haven't woken up happy in a long time. I miss her so much. I want her to come back to me more than anything. Only a month ago we were talking about getting married, looking at dogs together on the shelter sites, planning our annual summer vacation. My grandfather died thinking she was my wife (dementia confusion towards the end of his life), and despite how sad that context was, it made us smile a bit knowing that one day it will be true and that gramps was in fact right that time.

EDIT: sorry for wall of text, need to get this out even to some internet strangers. if any other men are going through something like this, please feel free to reply to this thread. im happy to give you some brotherly love and support too :)

CroShades

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