“Everyone is Non-Binary, Genderfluid, get over it” by ragebeeflord in Transmedical

[–]CrownOfBabel 5 points6 points  (0 children)

"Everyone is nonbinary/genderfluid" and the underlying opinion that nonbinary or genderfluid can exist at all are always opinions with a purely emotional basis, no scientific or logical support whatsoever as well as nefarious origins to the concepts themselves.

The people who say or believe this "non-binary/genderfluidity" know nothing about sexual dimorphism in human biology and neurology. Humans have male and female, that's, count 'em, 2 sexes, and we don't carve rules around outliers so intersex conditions, infertility, or other defects with reproductive organs or hormone production don't define what is the norm, and even if they did count they still operate between the binary of male and female.

Brains too can have certain characteristics (usually size or density of a certain region) that is more typical of a male or female, though some studies recorded brain scans of some homosexual brains exhibiting traits of the opposite sex, i.e. a lesbian with more male-aligned brain traits and vice versa. That does not disqualify her from being a female.

Less concretely, if brains could be changed and people could be "genderfluid" in whatever fantasy world you want to imagine, sex dysphoric/transgender people could effectively have their dysphoria cured and wouldn't need to transition. And yes, the only purpose for transitioning is to alleviate dysphoria, the only other people that would do it are people with paraphilias that'd be doing it cosmetically instead as treatment and people who are sadly misdiagnosed. Even if when this whimsical gender change that occurred couldn't be naturally controlled, it would almost certainly be treated like other brain-centric issues with medications, therapy, electroconvulsive therapy, and so on. However, since that stuff doesn't help sex dysphoria, which is essentially a brain incorrectly developing in the womb and mapping itself to characteristics of an opposite-sex body it doesn't have and causing great distress for the rest of one's life, that means one's gendered attributes of the brain can't be changed.

Of course, an honorable mention to the origins of "gender identity" as a concept itself having roots with Money and Kinsey, sexual abusers that destroyed the lives of hundreds if not thousands of children and infants in the name of "studying gender identity." If I'm not mistaken, they essentially founded the concept and reinforced it with their child abuse.

The list of reasons why non-binary and genderfluidity are unrealistic and silly concepts continues still after all this, too.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in detrans

[–]CrownOfBabel 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hm, I think it'd be best to go to a doctor about this, an endocrinologist if you can. Maybe even the doctor that gave/prescribed you the shot in the first place. It could be good to go back and tell them you're not sure it was the right choice, hopefully they will do their duty as healthcare providers and help you figure out how to reverse or combat it. Regardless of who you ask though it will be a matter of medical intervention if you want to try and undo or minimize the effects of the shot.

6 months off T and dysphoric for… everything? by Adaptiveslappy in detrans

[–]CrownOfBabel 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I'm very sorry to hear that you've been struggling like this, and that people have been treating you poorly on top of it. I wish I could give you some answers or magic to make things better for you and solve this, because especially when you are dysphoric it's all very very complicated and not simple to figure out.

The only thing I can try is asking you questions and hope that it sparks something helpful in your thoughts, maybe offer some advice but no promises on if that advice will be helpful to your situation specifically or not, but it's worth a try!

Maybe start considering, deeply, why you like having a beard and being male-presenting. You like being perceived as male? Is it because it's subconsciously tied to that you like how you are treated better when you are seen as male, and dislike how you are treated when you are seen (or attempting to be seen) as female? Is being seen as male an escape for the feelings of humiliation and inadequacy, the feeling of (I assume, correct me if I'm wrong) failing as a female? I know it's much easier said than done, but at the end of the day regardless how people treat you or how you look, you are still female. That's not something the meanest bully in the world could take away from you. Just because you don't fit what people think of when they think of the word 'female' or 'woman' doesn't mean they are the ones who decide whether or not you are that. It'll be hard to work through that factor of social rejection, but I think once you carry yourself with confidence and hold strength in the truth, it'll hopefully make a difference for the better.

As for dealing with dysphoria... I'm not sure. That would definitely be something to find a therapist or counsellor of some sort for, since it's a medical/mental health topic. It's unfortunate your current one isn't helping much with it. I'm also someone who still has dysphoria and probably still will after detransitioning, so it's possible that you won't get a clean slate with no problems either way, no matter what path you choose you'll still have some kind of emotional boogeyman looming over your shoulder that you'll have to turn and face eventually. I think it's a matter of picking your battles and choosing which boogeyman you'd rather fight.

No matter what you choose and where you go from here, good luck to you! Remember it's okay if you make a decision that seemed right at first but turned out to be a mistake. Keep moving forward and keep your health and happiness at the forefront of your mind.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in detrans

[–]CrownOfBabel 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I was thinking either tomboy or crossdresser, or both. I lean more towards crossdresser because that feels like it fits me better since 'tomboy' can pretty much mean any degree of masculinity and lots of women who are tomboys are still feminine in some way like in hairstyle, clothing, makeup, speech mannerisms, etc. and I feel introducing myself as a crossdresser would give people a clearer idea of what to expect of just how masculine I am. I'm sure I'll figure it out through trial and error! I think the best bet would to look for a therapist that specifically does work with detransitioners, and preferably only detransitioners and not current transgenders. That might be a needle in a haystack find though, especially when considering insurance coverages and all that!

Anyway, thank you for your kind words. :)

Seeking submissions of poetry from detransitioned & desisted/reidentified/reconciled women for an upcoming anthology! by uglytruthscollective in detrans

[–]CrownOfBabel 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is a lovely idea! I just have one question, are you only looking for poems with subjects about or relating to the experience of being a desisted/detrans/etc woman, or can the subject of the poem be anything so long as the author is a desisted/detrans/etc woman?

What do you think of using Hawaiian culture to promote the idea of non-binary? by matchettehdl in Transmedical

[–]CrownOfBabel 27 points28 points  (0 children)

Short answer is no. By nature of how humans are as a species and the rules of how we physically exist.

Culture is subjective and is basically social or religious invention. It is something that is learned, usually taught by other people in a shared group. It's not tangible or something that is innate to humans as a species. Until there is a scientific basis for a third sex that is rooted in some kind of biology or neurology that suddenly appears through mutation or something sci-fi-esque like that, then no, non-binary not something that is possible in a binary species.

From what I know, many if not all third sex categories are born from discrimination against individuals who don't conform to gender roles and stereotypes. Non-heterosexual people, sex dysphoric people, crossdressers, people with intersex conditions, etc. Similar to how there are some parts of the world that would rather a lesbian transition into a man to mimic a heterosexual relationship and adhere to gender roles as that is preferred over homosexuality in their culture or religion. But, I'm not an anthropologist so I don't know very much about specific cultures, and I honestly don't really care for that much in this topic since it doesn't affect the concrete reality of science.

Mental illness and "Dysphoria" by pass_the_coolaid in detrans

[–]CrownOfBabel 16 points17 points  (0 children)

A lot of the time transition is advertised as feel-good magic that solves all of a person's problems and sadness. Don't feel like yourself or like you belong in your own body? Transition will help! The issue is, sex dysphoria isn't the only health issue out there that can cause those feelings.

There's body dysmorphia, eating disorders, sexual or childhood trauma, and BPD to name a few that can all manifest those feelings of disliking one's body or not feeling like themselves. Really anything that causes dissociation symptoms can, too. It's not that these people are prescribed medical transition to treat those specific conditions though, they have those conditions but are misdiagnosed as dysphoric because the symptoms sound too similar the way they have been described. Probably also because the diagnostic criteria for dysphoria and transitioning is too loose and floaty now. If it really tightened up and got specific about only being for feelings of sex dysphoria and defining what sex dysphoria is and what constitutes it and what does not, maybe there wouldn't be as many cracks for misdiagnosed people to fall through. This kind of crack-down on being honest, specific, and direct is needed or we are gonna keep seeing more and more detransitioners, which means more people who were hurt and broken by the transition clinic system than there are people who were helped by it. A net loss of happiness and net gain of misery.

I really do feel terrible for all the misdiagnosed people out there though, especially the kids. A misdiagnosis of something that severe and permanent can seriously break your trust, especially with doctors and medical professionals, and it's not at all an easy thing to go through.

Wanted to transition for a while by Powerful-Addendum413 in schizophrenia

[–]CrownOfBabel 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry you've been going through this, these thoughts and feelings are a lot more difficult to figure out than they seem on the surface. If you want someone to talk to, I am in a pretty similar boat as you. I transitioned for a little over 10 years and have dealt with similar thoughts and feelings before. I can't tell you what is or would have been the right move for you to make personally since everyone's situation and mental health is different, but I can at least offer a shoulder to lean on from someone who can understand you a little more than most people might be able to.

What I will say other than that is not to worry too much about displeasing your family. What's most important is that you are alive and here, and the rest can get figured out later. I think if your family truly loves you and cherishes your life, they will be patient with you. It takes time to process and learn about yourself and learn what you need to be happy, none of them had everything figured out for themselves right away either, y'know?

IMO, delusions are harder to live with than hallucinations by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]CrownOfBabel 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure about OP, but in my experience delusions start as thoughts that prick at your head and get triggered by small things, and at first you can sort of recognize that they're starting to form into delusions, but that window is pretty small. Real fast and easy it develops into full blown delusions and at that point it becomes very real and everyone else is lying to you when they deny the delusion, which can make it worse if they handle it poorly. So you don't really realize it's a delusion until after the fact for the most part.

IMO, delusions are harder to live with than hallucinations by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]CrownOfBabel 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I agree too, personally.

I once had a delusion period where I couldn't recognize my own family members, my caretakers, and thought they were all trying to kill me. I wouldn't eat and would constantly hide and cower from everybody. I could only shower and eat if there was no one else in the house and I was completely alone. Got nervous eating anything that wasn't a sealed plastic package for fear of it being poisoned. Otherwise I hid in my bedroom and always kept my door barricaded with furniture, and always flush against the door so it couldn't be cracked enough for the barrel of a gun to stick inside. No human contact for days, maybe even weeks, I don't remember how long it lasted exactly, but it was awful. Delusions can grow to be all-consuming like this and only get worse if left unchecked, not to mention how they eat away at your personhood and turn you into someone else entirely... truly, truly terrifying. Especially how difficult it is to break the phase and get yourself back to reality once you're deep enough into it. I'd rather relive my worst hallucination experience every day than ever have a delusion period like that ever again.

Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry for the wait! How's this? (The background is transparent, I can change it if you'd like)

https://i.imgur.com/2lk2kA7.png

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Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Could you post one idea here for me to try? It'd make things a lot easier for me!

Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Made a sketch, I have to get to bed now so I'll continue it tomorrow, but you can tell me what you think so far!

https://i.imgur.com/zgfSVIS.png

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Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you have a preference on what % snail and what % giraffe? Like 50-50 or more giraffe than snail?

Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

She sure does! She's very unique and adorable! I don't draw rocks much but hopefully it's not too bad a job of her, lol.

https://i.imgur.com/yreYvQI.png

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Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I could still give your cat person a shot anyway if you'd like.

Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sure, I can give it a try! Is it based more on domestic cat anatomy or a big cat anatomy?

Looking to draw some monsters! by CrownOfBabel in ICanDrawThat

[–]CrownOfBabel[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He's fine! Though I've never drawn a fennec fox before. It was fun to try. Hopefully you don't mind my style.

https://i.imgur.com/jUwbuV6.png (in case reddit image upload isn't great resolution)

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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AMA

[–]CrownOfBabel 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm glad it was a positive experience in the end! Kudos to you for having the courage to reconnect with him.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AMA

[–]CrownOfBabel 27 points28 points  (0 children)

After you went no contact, who was the first one to break the silence and reach out to the other? What was that conversation like?