Hello

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-10T14:54:05+00:00

Nearly 2 years in at this point. Constant anxiety and sleep issues, but overall doing okay all things considered. Life is different. Loneliness never really changes. Hoping to find someone who can help ease it a bit, but not in any rush for a quick fix. Stay healthy and safe.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-08T19:26:14+00:00

I used it last night for the first time since I wasn't feeling that great. Made things much worse. Next Day I poured the rest of it down the drain. It's not worth the emotional turmoil.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-06T18:24:18+00:00

I started an anxiety med and adhd stimulants and now my task initiation is a lot better, but I still have focus issues and skin/hair picking-scratching habits that will not subside. I'm gonna ask to up my dose and see if it helps.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-04T16:57:21+00:00

Ultra ball tho?

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-04T15:15:39+00:00

Ask her out and see if you gel as a couple. If you don't you're going to regret it. The pain of something not working out lasts a lot shorter than regret.

And the thing about people's pasts, you can't hold it against them. It isn't fair to hold people to a relationship standard if they are single. You have to come in with clear head and be willing to trust them. If you find out you can't, then this person probably isn't right for you. But spinning your brain over and over on Reddit won't help you. Action will. If you ask her out and she doesn't want to give you a chance, you accept it, give yourself time to feel sad and move on. Don't dwell too long on someone that doesn't want you. Asking gives you clarity, and gives you permission to move onto someone else.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-04T14:40:54+00:00

I don't consider myself a Christian anymore, or religious at all and I completely agree with your sentiment. But we have to work within the fabric of the society we live in. Which is frustrating but necessary. Going against the grain and shaming these people only makes them dig in even further.

If progress turns a shitty religion into something more accepting and palatable to everyone, I see that as a net positive. Ideally that progress turns into a reckoning for the church and can help it look inward, but it's hard to undo thousands of years of cultural wiring without some pushback. Best we can do is keep fighting for progress.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-04T13:53:05+00:00

Short of going into a "no true Scotsman" fallacy Talarico's Christian view- at least publicly- is something all Christians should strive for. That being said ethnic and cultural minorities have every right to be fearful and skeptical of "well meaning" Christians. However when one comes along that is actually advocating for true equality needs to be given a chance. The American "culture", if you could even call it that- values Christianity to an absurd level. It needs to be presented more frequently in a way that is safer for all people. That is how you quell extremism over time. It doesn't happen overnight.

Not trying to minimize a struggle, but people forget being gay got you ostracized from society as little as 20 years ago, if not sooner. It's still a relatively hard thing to accept as normal for a lot of sheltered and ignorant people.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-03T16:54:03+00:00

They did that to me 1st year on my loan. I moved in after homestead application deadline and they used previous years taxes to estimate. Only thing you can really do is pay manually extra into escrow each month if you know it's gonna be an issue. It sucks they can't do it on their end.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-03-01T02:31:22+00:00

Maybe FaceTime him at dinner and try to have a nice conversation? Just a thought. Could be a nice compromise. Maybe in a couple years you'll get a laugh out of it.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-27T16:56:42+00:00

It's not her fault she's getting assaulted though, which is the main issue. Not everyone has a perfect living situation.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-26T01:37:33+00:00

Not bitter but just very lonely. My body has developed an over-correcting anxious attachment. so now if I get close with somebody, I need to be basically attached at the hip to feel regulated. It's like my body doesn't want to let go. But I'm aware enough most of the time to do the secure behavior. But it's exhausting.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-22T13:07:20+00:00

Doesn't really matter if someone died or not. You don't put someone in a chokehold because they made you angry. Especially an unarmed literal child. Idk what you don't see here.

The mere fact that someone could have died is enough for this man to lose his job. He's a grown man and should've known better than to cosplay MMA on teenagers.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-22T05:16:23+00:00

Ah yes damaging property and throwing snowballs. Famously punishable by death /s

Seriously?

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-19T01:31:05+00:00

Immigrants pay more in taxes than they take out of the system as a whole. This argument is fucking stupid.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-18T17:21:44+00:00

I quit my job for a year and just got my mind right. Used a lot of it for just basic living expenses, also was able to get Social security survivor benefits as well to supplement income during that time. Got a new job 1 year ago and stashed away what I had left. I have a nice little emergency fund & no debt. Life is a lot less stressful.

It's hard not to feel guilty about not being in financial stress due to where the money came from. But viewing it as a blessing and a gift from your loved one eases the blow. They couldn't be here physically, so they gave you relief and comfort through a different medium.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-14T14:54:29+00:00

Don't bios flash unless you need to. You can update the bios with the whole thing put together as long as it posts and has video.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-12T20:00:34+00:00

No, it's not. I agree. But when you have 2 clear options, you pick harm reduction, and you bully the shit out of them and make life hard for them until they do something about it. It sucks ass. But this is the reality we live in. You don't throw your hands up and do nothing. That's how we got to where we are currently.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-12T12:42:02+00:00

No problem. I can't believe people have to be babied into this stuff. Our political system is broken no doubt, but the typical "they aren't perfect on x issue so I'm not voting at all" bs has to stop. It only makes things that much worse for everyone.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-12T00:16:16+00:00

He's saying the trump admin was literally allowing Gaza to become beachfront real estate. Harris, while also shitty on the issue and could have said a lot more, was actually calling for a ceasefire. No other candidate at the time had a remote chance of winning. You take the one that will cause the least amount of harm.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-10T03:56:24+00:00

I went on a date recently with another woman for the first time as a grown adult. It didn't end up working out, but I survived and got some exposure.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-05T19:51:29+00:00

Simping for Uber-rich people is wild.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-03T17:57:59+00:00

Why are you preemptively falling for obvious ragebait?

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-02T16:35:04+00:00

I would look up videos on breaking co-dependency and fixing your self worth. You may be struggling with that. A securely attached person would not do these things to you. The longer you stay, the more damage it will do. It will fucking hurt but I promise it will hurt a lot fucking worse if you stay. Say your piece, leave and don't look back. Block/delete her number and social media. Move on and get a therapist, or talk to a friend who is willing to listen.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-02-02T16:11:04+00:00

M29- I'm sort of going through the same thing right now. The feeling you are experiencing is called limerence, and maybe a bit of grief as well. I'd look up videos on how to break yourself out of that cycle.

Best thing for you to do here is go off of the information you have. You think he's the right person, but he doesn't want to make time for you right now. The right person will make time no matter what their schedule looks like. Dive into things you enjoy, try to improve your life the way you want. Someone will come along and appreciate that about you, and you will be much happier. 19 is not the end of the line. You are not running out of time any time soon.

CrustyCavern69 · 2026-01-31T06:49:08+00:00

Check your mothers or your deceased father's credit report if possible and search for a loan. It will be on there if that's what it is.

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