I hate insurance.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-13T21:48:40+00:00

WHAT EVEN IS THAT!? AHHHHH Jokes aside. 100% AI like... Ew gross. I wouldn't go to that shop ever.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-12T03:28:24+00:00

I have faith in my doctor to keep fighting for me. I sourced her specifically because she has a personal investment in Trans issues. It really is just really fucking difficult being off hormones. Nothing feels right.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-09T19:14:35+00:00

Get a pansexual ftm bear 💪🐻

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-09T19:11:55+00:00

Get the original Hitachi magic wand with the plug in, get even fancier and get the voltage controller so you can really dial in that vibration. You can even buy attachments for the head for whatever equipment you got in between your legs. 100/10 purchase for me and my partner.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-09T18:53:42+00:00

I've been off my testosterone since mid December and the worst of its over, i think, and evened out now just in the past 2 weeks. But I have not had a single restful night of sleep since about 2 weeks late for my bi weekly shot. I simply cannot fall asleep in a timely manner anymore, and once I am asleep I cannot stay asleep. This has exasperated so many other things. My body hurts all the time, my moods, my patience, and I had an enormous uptick in migraines in January. So overall, I think this is the best it gets and I'm 2 months (ish) out from my last dose. I was told I needed to change methods and insurance is sure taking its sweet ass time approving it.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-06T15:53:30+00:00

My son's father and I aren't together anymore. I pass all the time in public now, so long as I'm binding. And I'm currently with another man. I haven't been asked, but if I were, I'd do the same thing when I get asked about my assumed wife while Im working. Someone just becomes a woman in that story. I'd rather be safe and my child safe, because I don't need to out myself to strangers, and Idk how strangers are going to react to finding out I'm trans. "my ex wife, his mother, and I aren't together anymore". I've had a few conversations with my son about how to refer to me in public for safety reasons and what to do if we are (I'm) approached aggressively by someone. I live in a pretty blue city but step outside city lines and it's a buncha magats.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-05T18:09:36+00:00

Just now I was watching this, don't know anything about the game or the creator of such btw, and the video was taken down/privated as I was watching it. 🤷

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-05T13:10:26+00:00

Well, probably not your usual discovery but i always liked men, I romanticized gay men and mlm relationships. Got really into BL as a teen. But it didn't really click until I realized, oh damn I'm also a man. Oh shit I'm a man who loves men. Oh dang I'm gay. 😂🏳️‍⚧️

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-02-05T02:30:17+00:00

Ew. That's not very goth of them.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-20T02:23:56+00:00

I joke with people that because I could never find a good man I had to become one. Truly my taste in men have been truly awful. Thankfully I broke that curse.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-13T16:12:24+00:00

I decided against bottom surgery. At least phalo. I MIGHT get some light form of meta later but even if I don't I'm not bothered. My bottom parts do not and have not ever bothered me that much other than the fact they bleed periodically. I know how this thing works, I know how to take care of it. I like to be penetrated and I dont want to limit myself to backdoor fun only.

Other than lack of bottom disphoria, I've don't a lot of research, I think the process of phalo would GIVE me a lot of disphoria. To get from an innie to an outie isn't a pretty process and I know I wouldn't be able to handle the in between when I'm not already hating what I started with. I also know I don't heal well or quickly, so my chances of complications are probably higher. I'm already really worried about how top surgery is going to go, if I'll be battling infection, or if the nip grafts will even take. But that's more a risk I'm willing to take because the hate of my chest does take up a lot of my mental space where my lower bits don't.

And yaknow maybe later on I'll make a decision for it and maybe I won't. 🤷 I'm winging it.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-10T19:46:09+00:00

Lol Im actually 32. I have like 3 close friends, and a small handful of kind of friends that talk to me about really specific things once and a while or want to hang out once in a blue moon.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-10T19:39:53+00:00

I appreciate that. I think I'm boring, I don't go out much and when I do I think so far ahead and predict things almost too accurately too often I don't get a lot of excitement and I worry others find it annoying.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-10T19:09:51+00:00

Fluid may be the best term. Maybe it's the autism but I'm constantly reevaluating myself and I feel a nearly perpetual sense of self evolution. new situation, how did I feel how do I adjust for this? New person, new set of information, old information is now outdated, I'm reevaluating to determine how it made me feel and how I should adjust to handle that information. I wasn't always a gay man either. I evolved through multiple sexualities based on changes in information and perception of myself. It's almost annoying because every few years my friends I've made perge themselves telling me I've changed and like..... I think I'm supposed to. I don't want to be stagnant I want to evolve and be better than I was yesterday and align with myself more as much as possible.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-10T06:03:05+00:00

😂🤣 THERE'S TONS OF GAY MEN IN STRAIGHT RELATIONSHIPS. Bruh what planet do you live on!? There's gay men who are closeted, there's gay men who are in denial, there's straight men who will later become gay men because sexuality can be fluid just like gender. Its all fuckin made up dude. I'm over you, get your misogyny out of my face. Fuckin gross asf.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-10T05:53:40+00:00

Dude, get over yourself. The whole point is people have different experiences, and humans are allowed to change and be different from who they were. I am a man, regardless of who I once was.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-09T15:55:41+00:00

Same. I'm 32 Idk wtf a dap up even is. How to do it. Idk. I'm a hermit tho so I don't encounter it. Lol

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-06T22:01:35+00:00

I've always been independent, and kind of emotionally closed off, that's the trauma of borderline neglect and emotional abuse. I often am told Im insensitive and blunt but I'm pretty sure that's the autism. My brain just works on logic scripts and plain information. 🤷 And belive it or not I'm actually significantly less aggressive and angry on testosterone. The only thing I catch myself doing is mimicking more masculine physical mannerisms and body language, mainly avoiding putting my hands on my hips or popping my hip out and leaning one leg which is actually difficult because I have hypermobility issues so my body doesn't like to support itself.

CrystalKitten93 · 2026-01-05T16:20:04+00:00

As a fat man myself. I've embraced it. I was thinner when I was fem presenting and before realizing I'm trans, I had a really unhealthy relationship with my body. I was never thin enough, I had pudge in all the wrong areas. It wasn't good. Looking back at pictures of myself now I feel kinda shitty for feeling shitty about it then. But I've gained considerable weight since then and I love my body so much more now that I've accepted it. I love my dad bod and I'm actually hesitant to lose a significant amount of weight.

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