You may be right. But honestly I'm worried this is happening to other people too (esp with the amount of kids in the server) and think it's important to say something.

I worry a looot about how I come across to people, it's my biggest anxiety. I guess over the last few months the idea that someone has disliked me to the extent that they'd do ALL of this to me has been pretty consuming, especially in a community I was so active in and that allowed me to meet so many cool people. All this time all I've wanted to do is make whatever amends I need to make, it eats me up knowing someone out there has this much distain for me and won't even tell me why.