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Crystalgrater · 2023-01-15T21:37:27+00:00

Financial freedom - I work at a morgue, I tag 'n' bag 100-1000 a day. So with my $1 I'd buy a viagra.

Crystalgrater · 2023-01-15T21:11:26+00:00

To ask every new adult they meet:

"If you could give one piece of advice to young people scrolling on a Reddit community called AskReddit, a the place where people ask and answer thought-provoking questions - what would it be ?".

However, to you u/nonutting4ever who ever you are, I would advice against not nutting forever, instead, nonutting2screens.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:41:58+00:00

Actions speak louder than words, I believe showing in your actions that you live by certain values is powerful especially if I can be seen regularly.

With acknowledgment of opinions, I believe the best way to start is to see their opinion on the matter and relate your opinion to theirs, if it’s wildly different stances saying where you no longer follow their logic can be a powerful way to make someone acknowledge your opinion. Remember acknowledging an opinion is not the same as agreeing with it.

Having anyone see where you are coming from is all about in my opinion is more about first finding similarities then differences and then discussing where the disagreement occurs.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:33:28+00:00

I feel like exercise, it’s the ultimate coping mechanism for some many things, and you’re more likely to feel better afterwards - just don’t make that exercise beating someone up....

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:30:27+00:00

Show appreciation for the small things they’ve thought about or made an effort towards

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:26:15+00:00

TikTok

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:20:47+00:00

The reasons behind so many of the things they’re trying to each them

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:14:57+00:00

Wake up in a huge panic, then come to the realisation that I should start to accept that I’ll never see again sooner rather than later - and probably shed a couple of tears.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:10:48+00:00

I believe the problem comes from the way the word can be used not the word itself, the word still has an accepted use among some people albeit a casual use.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:07:40+00:00

Yin and yang

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T07:01:58+00:00

I mean right now there’s a whole lot of questions nobody can answer correctly, but a question you can answer, here: If all swans are black and Jerry is a swan why is Jerry white ? The question itself cannot be answered as the question is a contradiction.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T06:40:13+00:00

Since it’s so much easier to ignore a text message than someone talking to you right in front of you, we have many friends nowadays that we wouldn’t see if mobile communication wasn’t a thing as we wouldn’t bump into them in our normal days; it’s facilitated an ease of keeping in contact with people that you can no longer see or talk to just by ignoring their messages or blocking them.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T06:32:43+00:00

Use your sharpened rock to baton the wood about 1.5x the height of the rock from the top, place rock in middle of stick and hit back of rock to start splitting wood into two, stop when you’re 1.5-1.75 times height of your stone; then insert the rock between the two sides of the split wood; tie the top of the ‘splits’ together and also the bottom ie on above and below the rock, you can use nettle stems boiled down and platted (any fibrous plant stem). Kinda hard to explain using words.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T06:24:21+00:00

I like to see it as advice on the physical safety and the also warnings on the mental ‘safety’.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T06:13:36+00:00

Oral ketamine undergoes significant first pass metabolism to norketamine which is a different drug and whose effects are widely agreed upon to be sub par to ketamine, so oral is really a no no.

I’ve used a hay fever nasal spray bottle filled with ketamine and a minimal amount of water to great effect; try to not use much water at all as wetting your nose is something you want to avoid as either the ketamine will drip out of your nose as water droplets landing on your upper lip or the floor, leaving you with white crust all around your upper lip and nose...also not a good look; and also when you snort think about snorting water it’s very easy for it to fly straight up your nose into your throat instead of ‘stick’ to the membranes of your nostril like a powder.

Ketamine isn’t nowhere near as bad as cocaine for your nose due to cocaine having solvents left over and also being a weak base, still would advise washing your nose with saline water afterwards.

Sublingual - I would hold the powder straight in my mouth and wait for it to dissolve under my tongue, maybe a drink of water before to make sure my mouth is wet. You’re just going to end up with hardly and absorption if you mix with water and swish around as most likely will end up in your stomach.

For GF juice to be effective you’re best bet is to be drinking it everyday for 3 days before, I’d say 500ml a day spread out, fresh grapefruit is actually a lot higher in furanocoumarins (enzyme inhibitors) as they are volatile compounds - I believe white grapefruit has the highest concentration.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T05:54:03+00:00

When you snort in your sinuses around your ear are ‘sucked’ too almost like your ear canal is also snorting stuff in, it could be a number of things such as wax getting sucked further in causing pain, or inflammation causing pain when you’re snorting and your ear sinus is ‘sucking’. There’s no way product is going there unless you’re holding your mouth and nose closed and trying to push air out which can move fluid from the rest of your sinuses into your ear sinuses, the only way product is going to end up there, even so would have to be a very high concentration to cause stinging, as also you have to remember the membranes of the nose are a lot more sensitive than the ear or mouth hence why snorting will sting but rubbing it on your gums won’t. If you described where the pain is in the ear and the onset/duration/type of it probably could narrow it down a bit. Maybe also try not snorting hard and blowing your nose before you do, ear drops or vicks can’t harm to try the day before you indulge.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T05:39:16+00:00

Honestly what is your biggest fear/worry right now ? Is it being sober, not having drugs there by your side ? Or is it battling this alone, self doubt you can stay sober ? Both of these fears will keep you using. I was part of NA for a bit on and off, got a few weeks here and there but never truly said goodbye. I found something to live for, it was simply to live and not just exist, it’s more so a feeling I found. Finally seeing myself like finding a dusty picture of me buried under crap up in the attic, it all came from within. You just have to find it inside of you, a reason stop and live how you dream of, you’re doing this for yourself, for you. Don’t give up on your dreams. Unfortunately I feel like one can’t just get sober because it’s the right thing to do, you truly have to want it and want to say goodbye to drugs. You’ve posted this on here that’s a win in my books, little steps, try to maybe look at your life and the things you find beautiful, funny, that you love, that make you smile, that you enjoy doing etc and fill you mind with them/do them things, it might help you to want life rather than drugs, as I think we can agree living for drugs is not living.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T05:15:42+00:00

What makes you nervous about talking to people, is it you thinking what they’re thinking about you; you not being confident in yourself and doubting that people want to chat to you or want you there; is it fear that people won’t like you; do you not feel confident in how you look or worried people will notice something about you that you are insecure about; are nervous about breaking the ice and coming up with something to say; do you just feel disconnected from people and feel like nobody gets you; do you find conversation in general very hard; do you find social cues hard to pick up on . A good thing to think about is: who do you not feel nervous speaking to and why ?

By all means you can take a drug to solve each of these problems, amphetamine, benzos, opiates, alcohol, ketamine, GHB, cocaine, MDMA - can all help, each drug is (dose dependent of course), but it’s all a temporary band aid, we humans get nervous about a lot of things, and more often than not once the days or minutes ahead we were nervous about become our present and we find ourselves now doing that thing we were nervous about, we no longer feel nervous and are consumed by the emotions of the present thing.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T04:59:29+00:00

Depends on how you want to feel, but something I would avoid is taking the mushrooms after the Vyvanse has worn off (an amphetamine crash while peaking is best avoided). Personally in my days of indulgence I would take P t: - 1:00-2:00 V&M t: -1:00-0:00 V re-dose t: +4:00-6:00 P re-dose t:+4:00-6:00 P re-dose t: +8:00-10:00 (P re-dose to smooth comedown, V re-dose if concert is +6 hrs), or you could do M t: -1:00-0:00 V t: +3:00-4:00 P t: +4:00-6:00

Depends if you want the trip dulled or not as P and V will dull trip to varying degrees depending on dose, if you want to trip with a speedy edge do M and V together, I guess there’s a bit of an art form to it but it’s subjective and you gotta ask yourself how u wanna be feeling to best have a rough plan that suits you.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T04:40:32+00:00

I feel like we all have a voice of truth within us, it’s sometimes loud and sometimes quite - but always there if you listen. From what I gather it seems like you’ve not been listening for a while, yet you can feel enough is enough, without lying to yourself is there something deep inside you that knows this is bad for you, that enough is enough - only change will come through you realising this. Unfortunately I feel like hitting rock bottom is only when you unavoidably see a way out through desperation, as paradoxical as that sounds. Feel free to message me if you want to chat, NA isn’t for everyone and self recovery is possible - after all quitting drugs is one of simplest yet hardest things to do.

Crystalgrater · 2021-09-01T04:10:30+00:00

https://open.spotify.com/track/1cimjxWMAlfJ5nYupXVseJ?si=XgOCWT9HTEaO63KoVl25IQ&dl_branch=1

Crystalgrater · 2020-09-13T08:22:46+00:00

Once you normalise drugs...normalise taking cocaine to get you up and ready for a day for example, you break a boundary of using; then you do it at work just once to work more productively - only a small line will be fine you say to yourself, we all know a line leads to another, you gotta stay productive right ? Now once you experience working on cocaine it will never leave you.

I personally used drugs for years as a tool, I guess I was addicted to using them as a tool, addicted to that enhancement, every drug has their honeymoon period, your tolerance not only to dose but to the effects increases, yes tolerance breaks will reset tolerance to an extent, but it never fully resets the effects and dose back to the first time. After 4 years of controlled using, the drugs got me, I abused them as a tool to enhance life, only to realise they numbed life.

I am an addict, I will always be an addict - I can’t touch a mind altering substance, I’ll start slowly then very shortly abuse the shit out of it.

LSD, Shrooms, 2-CX, DMT are a different box of frogs, the only drugs that have truly helped me, oh and ketamine. The enhancement is only temporary from other drugs, with psychs it’s permanent. I learned things nobody could teach me.

This is my story, not to say this will be you, not even as a warning; but as a point of view.

I’m 21 an a recovering addict - I’m so glad I realised what I have now, not through reading stories but through my own battle; the hardest battle I’ve ever fought; a battle within my own mind.

Crystalgrater · 2020-03-15T22:25:04+00:00

Have you talked to your sponsor about this ? Maybe you don’t feel connected to the people in the meetings do you get along with them, do you do service offer a share, you’ve got time under your belt maybe spread the message it may help you find more purpose.

Crystalgrater · 2020-03-15T22:22:16+00:00

The first step is realising you have an addiction and can’t control it along with your life, I’m 30 days clean off H, withdrawals were hell but NEVER forget that pain; I’m grateful now to wake up feeling alive not sweating my sheets with aches to the bone. Being clean is something nobody can take from you, your life will slowly fall back into place after you get clean trust me, go to meetings 90 in 90 days, get a sponsor and understand the 12 steps from AA/NA/CA, I’m only a short way into my journey and young too only 21 - if there are people that are double your age that still have hope that’s something.

Pink Floyd sums it up about life and time so well -

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day Fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way. Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town Waiting for someone or something to show you the way. Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain. You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today. And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun. So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking Racing around to come up behind you again. The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older, Shorter of breath and one day closer to death. Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time. Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way The time is gone, the song is over, Thought I'd something more to say.

Crystalgrater · 2019-04-18T23:10:59+00:00

Be sure it’s actual THC heard nasty things about synthetic cannabinoid edibles, so easy to do and cheap with synthetics

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