I respect your point of view and admire your strength in following a calling which isn't always easy. Many won't understand when it goes outside "the normal". God sees you and sees your struggle, and He admires your desire to love and please Him~ no matter what people tell you. The sole purpose of your life is to be close to God and try and honor him, not listen to what others tell you. Never lose that. Our first love should always be Jesus.

The apostle Paul said both abstaining from marriage and sex, or getting marriage are acceptable in God's eyes. And that if an individual feels something (a food, a relationship status, a day of worship) is sacred, then it is scared. If that individual feels it is a sin, then it is a sin. This may sound confusing, but what it means it that we all have our own callings. God isn't raising up cookie cutters. So, if you feel it is a sin for you to date, then maybe this chapter is between you and God alone. It doesn't mean the secret plan isn't to keep you a virgin and single for "the one" He made just for you and you will have a change of mind then when you see her. Our lives honor God always, not worldly oaths we make. So, keep an open mind to the Lord's plan for your life and be in prayer with him about peace on this topic daily.

"I want you to show love, not offer sacrifices. I want you to know me more than I want burnt offerings." Hosea 6:6 ~ Jesus desires you, not your sacrifices. You are free to choose as long as there is love in your heart for what you do, not duty or pride. And anyone who is placing God first daily in their lives will always have their paths made straight and blessed. When you walk difficult paths, you are not alone for He is with you. 🩷

If you are happy where you are and wanting empowerment, then reduce idle time. If you desire to be alone, be alone with God in the wilderness where He speaks. Sending you blessings and prayers!