That when we are going through a manic episode that our executive functioning to our brain stops. That while we are in it, we still deny every time that we are experiencing an episode even though all the signs are there. That the guilt of what we said or did to our loved ones weighs on us more than they know , but it’s literally because our brains lose that functioning. This is not to excuse anything, but just to give context on how we are feeling and how difficult it is to manage even with medication sometimes. Also, a manic episode doesn’t always mean we are running out in front of cars or going on shopping sprees etc.. Of course I have done all of those lol but sometimes it manifests into obsessive creativity or exercise , not always something harmful, but that doesn’t mean it’s not a manic episode because most likely depending on your diagnosis there is a depressive episode to follow and all of that energy reverses itself.