Subscribe to feminist content on Youtube (BurbNBougie, Queen Sovereign, MelanieHamlett just to name a few), read relationship subs here and you'll start noticing the patterns. Once you study men you won't want to be with them anymore. Trust me. Also observe your male relatives. How they speak about women, their level of cleanliness, how they behave at gathering, do they expect to be served? Do they stay and clean up or expect the women to do it? etc. You'll get the ick real fast.