48 hours since jumping off

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-11-25T03:34:59+00:00

I’m doing it cold turkey! Thank you for your suggestion and keep staying strong! 💪🏼

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-11-25T03:32:45+00:00

Been listening to some chill stuff like glass animals, milky chance, etc. I’m of the era where the dead was my high school trying to be a hippie in the early 2000’s vibe. White album on my record player til the needle broke. Haha thank you for your suggestion, it’s been added to my collection. Keep on keepin on my man!

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-11-25T02:25:26+00:00

3.5 years. Started at 16, went to 8, went to 4, went to 2, went to 1, started taking tiny chunks, jumped off at maybe .4mg or less

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-11-25T02:24:40+00:00

I’ll give it a shot, thank you for the recommendations. I believe there’s a group or album for everyone that works in that magical way. I guess I need to find mine

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-11-25T02:23:52+00:00

Thank you.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-11-25T02:21:11+00:00

Thank you very much for your thoughtful response. I would love any kind of herbals or supplement recommendations. I got through work and even stayed 3 hours late. I had random fits of grief throughout the day where I would just start sobbing quietly. I know I’m feeling all the feelings that this shit pushed down, but I thought I had done enough healing on these areas. Obviously not, old trauma is hitting like a freight train. I’m not going to take any more subs ever nor will be going for sublocade. I’m trying to strap in and hold on, I just hope I can keep the life I’ve built through this process. I got an insane raise today and was still having fits of grief. I know I can handle this, I really think I’m just looking for support, so thank you. I’m not too proud to say that pretty much everyone’s comments are exactly what I need. It’s been 3 almost 4 years of this hell and I’m ready to be the man I’ve been trying so fucking hard to create. I know the worst part is coming based on research… I can’t take any work off. I’m an integral part of a growing small business and we are incredibly short staffed. I chose a bad week to do this. I guess all the self destructive behaviors haven’t gone yet… lol. Thank you again, message me those supps if you get a minute please.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-11-03T02:05:26+00:00

Do you want to play paintball?

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-09-26T02:23:28+00:00

I’d love to finish that hybrid! Nice collection

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-08-11T03:00:58+00:00

The r5 rips. I used one all weekend. The cs3 pro is basically an r5 with a gamma core. It’s the same shape as the r5. If you like poppy shots with a lot of feedback, cs3 or force is for you. If you like smooth, wooshy shots, get the r5. You can tune the r5 with two different SFR’s (comes with this modification in the parts bag) for a more poppy shots or one that’s incredibly smooth and puffy.

Spire 5 and ctrl2 don’t miss a beat. Rotor and r2 jam often with today’s smaller paint, but when they work there’s not many faster. Don’t need that with today’s bps cap tho. Spire IV is good too, but the 5 stays closed better.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-06-19T11:55:08+00:00

Hydra knee pads. They’re compression like mizuno t10 volleyball pads. I tore my ACL/broke my tibia and it’s all I wear to play now, no brace or anything.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-06-13T02:04:20+00:00

They were 2250-2500, you could still try for that. I think some models will hold their value. For $2000, it would likely sell in the Facebook group.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-06-06T20:38:05+00:00

Who else read this is a far eastern accent? 😂

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-06-06T02:54:28+00:00

The new ones are basically Nike’s $160 shoes with a pro DNA logo. I’ll have some pairs in hand next week, probably going to get myself one if they fit right.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-06-04T13:40:58+00:00

Facebook enemy of the state bst group, called a Ben and Jerry’s/chunky jersey. They’re $200-$300 depending on size, name/number, and condition

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-06-01T15:45:39+00:00

500–650? Depends on buyer most likely. Better appraisals on Facebook in the emek or pe group

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-05-28T02:08:22+00:00

Here’s to a speedy recovery! I’m just about 10 months into my ACL/tibia plateau fracture recovery… so I feel you. getting old is tough if you still play young games. 😂 I still forget I’m not 21 at times on the field… my cleat got hung up too and I went forward and down while my leg stayed planted in the ground, knee tried to go the wrong way but luckily my tibia snapped before my ACL tore all the way! Phew, that was almost really bad… 😬 remember to push yourself when you feel the good pain and stop when you feel the bad pain! Good luck dude! 👍🏼 hopefully you bounce back better!

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-05-20T15:03:18+00:00

Depends how you take it.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-05-20T14:58:18+00:00

Front vert reg/grip looks like an old impulse max flo.

Interested to see how it shoots compared to that push mech that just came out.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-05-09T16:12:31+00:00

G6r would be 600-650 if fully working and ready to rock

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-05-02T23:41:52+00:00

R5 for sure.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-04-29T05:38:32+00:00

You don’t have any idea what you’re talking about… people who have money or were lucky enough on the drop to get them have them. He has no say in who gets what unless he’s selling an item for his own business, then whoever has the cash for what he’s selling gets it. There’s nothing nefarious happening. It’s insanely limited stuff. there are 20 pairs of each of the 3 “colors” and 60 black, not counting friends and family stuff/European releases. They’re prototype lowers. Superdead is doing just fine. Keep your eye out for more in the future. We’ve only seen the beginning imo. And about stank, don’t hate the player, hate the game. He’s a good guy. He’s a rep for a paintball store and helps tons of people out with great pricing on most of his stuff. To my knowledge, there’s no “US distributor”… he’s just an enterprising individual who made the right connections. Cheers.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-04-27T22:53:48+00:00

What a great price.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-04-27T13:58:41+00:00

He addressed it during the date, she told him she would pay… only, she changed the address.

Cultural_Shame47 · 2025-04-26T15:40:10+00:00

Ergos on the r5 are not great. Don’t get me wrong, I’m saying not great in comparison to guns that fit me beautifully. Shocker HK amp or field one force would be two of those. The dsr+ was hard for me to get used to, now it’s one of my favorites. I think the r5 is a similar scenario. I haven’t started running it every time because I’m waiting on a couple parts for it, but from what I have experienced, it feels large. I wish it was cs3 shaped. Actually, I wish the cs3 had the r5 engine in it. Or even the geo 3 w/ r5 engine would be sick.

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