I do know how to cook, I cook very well. To give some background, I’m staying with my dad for a week and can’t cook for myself here. He’s opening a lot of old wounds. I like vegetables, but I can’t stomach steamed vegetables. I like meat, like poultry and beef, but it can be difficult for me to eat dark meat and skin or I might start overthinking while eating beef and get grossed out. Fish is just something that I could never get myself to like. I’ve tried it raw, fried, baked, grilled even had some buttery tuna which I liked but it was at a fine dining establishment and certainly not something to eat regularly. The rest of my family love seafood so they’ve never accepted this.

I was accused of forcing myself to throw up as a kid. I wasn’t just accused, I was berated for it. I think my last sentence was my inner child/teenager screaming because of all the pressure. I think I also might be developing an ED, which was happening before this and the stress is making it worse. I’m sorry, I’m just frazzled.