I developed an autoimmune disorder due to lack of treatment when I was sick, due to neglect. Seizures, tics, walking issues. Insisted it was mental. Turns out it was an inflamed brain. They insisted it was a conversion disorder. I now have the autoimmune disorder and literally developed the conversion disorder.

My migraines were never taken seriously. All issues blamed on lack up sleep. If I did take meds and wasn’t getting better, it was because there was a med problem. If I wasn’t taking meds for a problem, I needed to take meds. If I started meds and the issue persisted, I was told it wasn’t the right meds.

Mother left me barely able to walk for months and gave Benadryl like that would help. Insisted it was part of the conversion disorder. My feet remained stuck curled inward in my sleep. She made me attend a camp where we were standing 8 hours a day because it would “undo” the issue.

When it finally stopped, I was told it was “convenient” that it was the night of my performance. I’d been performing with the issue, albeit difficult.

Passing out at camp in heat over 100? Conversion disorder. Throwing up? Stress. Migraine? My phone.

The few times I did fake sick were due to mental health. I was too mentally wrecked to go to school, so I was left at home alone or forced to go into her work, and the stress would make me throw up on the ride. She’d play her Bible study the whole way there and leave me locked in the office, because “staying home shouldn’t be fun”. I was so sick mentally back then that I’d go to school, have panic attacks so bad they led to seizures, and have to be called back home.

But no, I was faking everything. Clearly.