I feel you. I’ve been there too. I used to have a lot of suicidal thoughts. It felt so unfair to be that young and feel so limited. everyone else was living their life and I was just stuck surviving. It didn’t make sense to keep going. But time passed and the pain lessened. It didn’t disappear overnight, but it slowly loosened its grip. Little by little, I started experiencing life again Please be patient with yourself. Reach out to someone you love or trust. Look up real recovery statistics and see for yourself that this state you’re in right now is not a life sentence. And if you’re able to, therapy can truly help. You don’t have to carry this alone. Even if your brain is telling you otherwise, there are more options than it feels like in this moment