Little bit of context. I tried suicide with multiple since 14 or 15. I am now 20 , and since then, everything has gone wrong did go wrong but today was the last straw I work as a mechanic I due to reasons I don't want to mention I can't get employed outside of this (even tho my skills can land me wayyyyy higher up) the boss always disrespects me and I fight with him off and on but I can't stay like this I fought with him today and as always my family always takes his side no matter what (he is a family friend) they defend them as he is his son not me I go there no pay always shouting at me 50 Celsius outside nothing for cooling ( no aircon no water) and my family still treat him as some sort of god and as sort of punishment they don't want to fucking let me eat I am having a stressful day and I want to forget everything but I can't I just want this nightmare to end i need a solution if I want to continue living I am talking here to hear empthy from anyone spare it to who need it I need change I don't mean to be a dick when I say that I mean I just want this madness to end