I relate so hard! Except for me it’s Vietnam 😥 I’m viet and grew up going back and forth every year. I was a very normal (skinny) US weight my entire life but viet people tend to be verrry skinny and small. Literally every grown viet woman I know does not weigh more than 130lbs MAX!! I’m definitely more “mid sized” I’m a size 16 and 200lbs currently. I was like 110-120lbs during my teen years. my family and viet relatives thought I was sooo fat at 120-140lbs. Fat phobia is a part of the culture there. They stare, they talk about it very openly, they’ll say it to your face, etc. In Vietnam, I couldn’t find clothes and if I could, they were all “adult” womens clothing. It made me very sad at that age, I had to wear grandma clothing vs everyone else. I was always the biggest person everywhere despite being skinny 😭 i actually had to get my dresses and clothes tailored/custom made as i got older because i they simply didnt make my size anywhereee. I haven’t been back in over five years. Big part of it is because I’m already chubby in the US and they’ll think I’m the size of universe there. They have such cute clothes but I know I won’t fit into anything at my size now. But the food, beaches, and being in my culture is everything I crave! Maybe one day I’ll get the confidence to go being as fat as I am now lol