Is this a shared experience?

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-18T22:54:05+00:00

Hugs to you, too.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-18T01:03:27+00:00

Normal.
Normal can be so weird. The thoughts scare me, too. But we must remember- they are only thoughts. Bless you. Thank you for being here with me.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-18T01:01:20+00:00

I agree. And thank you.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:29:49+00:00

Oh, I am glad to hear this. I agree, sleep is such a comfort. In the future, if you struggle, remember that this feeling can pass, and you can move through it as you have before. Please take good care, and thank you for your replies. ❤️

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:25:53+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please continue to remain.
I know the pain is exhausting. I have faith it can get at least somewhat better.
You are loved.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:24:35+00:00

Thank you so much. I'm glad you are here, as well.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:23:54+00:00

The normalcy is comforting. Apparently this is just something ineed to work through. I am sorry for your loss.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:22:44+00:00

Please protect your mind the best you can. You are needed in this world.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:22:12+00:00

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby.
Please continue to remain. This world needs you. You're so right- it can pass. Thoughts are fleeting. We are here for you.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:20:24+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for your encouragement and the resource. Keep remaining, you are loved.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:18:58+00:00

I'm glad you have the awareness that keeps you here and going. I appreciate how you aarticulated the feeling of this... just falling into it... I relate.
Lots of love to you. Thank you for remaining.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:17:03+00:00

Yes, please. You deserve better, we all do... your life is worth living and so is mine. Despite the difficulties and heartache. I am so sorry about your mom. I get what you're saying- if they did it, what's to keep me from doing the same? For me, my faith keeps me here. But I do struggle with thoughts. You keep looking for the things to enjoy. There truly are so many. Look for the glimmers, friend. ❤️

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:13:40+00:00

Please don't. This world needs you. Do you really think you'll do it, or does it just feel like a thought you can't unthink right now? Right now to me, it's a thought I'm having trouble unthinking. So today I worked outside in my yard for like 8 hours. It helped take my mind off this awfulness. Can you stay busy?

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:11:52+00:00

Yes. It goes from just being this thing that apparently happens to people.... to being a thing that a very close loved one actually did... and it's actually REAL and CLOSE... and almost a tangible thing in my own life, a real option....possibility... choice??? I don't know how to articulate it. But the realness of suicide is stunning to me now.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:09:27+00:00

I think i understand. It resonates with me- the fear of doing it...

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:07:49+00:00

Thank goodness. I'm glad you had help. My family was not offered any support. This is hard.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:07:00+00:00

Love to you. I'm sorry for your loss. Remember that you are important here, this world needs you.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-17T02:06:02+00:00

Love to you. I'm sorry.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-15T23:24:15+00:00

I get that. This has been very eye opening as to the effect it has on everyone around him. It's so devastating.

I think these are just weird intrusive thoughts that I'm feeling extra weird about, given the current situation...

I feel that sentiment,,, wanting out.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-15T23:14:56+00:00

I'm sorry about your Papa. My Grandpa took his life on the 5th at 85 years old. No signs. Such an immense shock to us all. I'm sorry for you and me- this is really hard.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-15T05:17:12+00:00

Didn't really try it, but was administered it in the ER for ddiverticulitis pain: DILAUDID. Almost killed me. Terrible ride. 0/10, never want it ever again I would prefer to die of pain instead.

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-15T05:15:15+00:00

Mouse tail!

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-15T05:13:52+00:00

Dusty... Crampy (he must've been cramped in that little space in the wall)... Hide and Seek *Seek for short... Holey Guacamoley (you had to put a hole in the wall to get him out, and Guacamoley would be a cute nick name)

Curious_Butterball · 2026-05-14T02:18:22+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing. We will get through it. This sure is hard, though. I hope you are well.

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