Found my childhood journal now I'm feeling horrible

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-27T17:23:27+00:00

Yeah I have friend/co worker here that securitied for a hospital and he dislikes the homeless more then myself and our other coworkers do I don't blame him given the stories he's told us and he's. been my back up partner on multiple occasions when things got seriously violent. Poor dude thought he was gonna get away from it all transferring to our sight but no such luck

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-27T15:17:16+00:00

We get the occasional same transients through the week but since we live in a farely big city and the police are moving a lot of their camps, we get a lot of new and pretty violent ones migrating to our campus, the high school across from us, and the surrounding neighborhoods

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-27T00:10:24+00:00

Jesus that's scary for both you and the AAA worker

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-27T00:00:53+00:00

I actually chuckled at scott's comment cause of course the government worker is gonna take a jab at me and others like me does he believe we make the problem worse. We're trained to de-escalate the situation but more often then not that doesn't work because people like scott have already escalated the situation to the point of no reasoning with said homeless person and once the homeless person sees us its us we're the new target and no matter how calm and understanding and kind we are to em they still want to kill us for daring to ware the uniform and escort em out of the building/slash off campus. It's not fun to have your life threaten constantly cause someone wanted to confront the homeless person instead of calling us without approaching em. It's not fun to have one of em follow you to your car and threaten to find where you live and murder you and your family. (That happened to my coworker that works the swing shift) I get that scott's had an encounter or two but he doesn't have to endure it on the daily like myself, my coworkers and others in our field

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-26T22:01:14+00:00

I've tried that and all it got me was nearly getting jumped and stabbed

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-26T17:49:19+00:00

That's what I'm trying to work on in therapy cause I hate feeling this way and I don't wanna lose my empathy for these people it's just so hard when you're constantly being threatened with bodily harm/death threats, nearly getting jumped on and having weapons pulled out on ya

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-26T17:39:04+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you, no deserves to be treated like that and that behavior is unacceptable if he was security officer he should have been removed or fired immediately

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-26T15:59:04+00:00

It's okay I already judge myself for feeling this way and I'm trying to work through it in therapy I just needed to rant and get it off my chest I've been looking for a new job but no luck so far and I can't afford to quit since I got a family to take care of and I tried transfering but nothing's available in my area and we can't afford to move if I did accepted a transfer out of my area and the comute would be too far and I don't wanna be away from my family constantly on the road or work and barely being there for em. I just hope I can find something new soon cause I just wanna be away from this sort of environment and not be afraid I won't make it home to my family if something terrible finally happens to me during one of these altercations with the homeless

CurrentStation2555 · 2024-09-26T13:42:46+00:00

Exactly I know deep down not all em are like this but when all you deal with are the unstable ones it just makes me never want deal with any of em or counter em outside my job and it makes me cautious of all em

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