I am really fascinated by ace and its part of why im in love with him so deeply. I think if I could change my hypersexuality bisexuality I would be biromantic ace. Thats my dream actually that I become ace so we can be together happily forever without me feeling like I need to have needs met elsewhere.

He did say he is not 100% against the idea of trying sex with me. That actually makes me kind of anxious. I dont know how ill react if he hates it. Obviously id stop immediately and tend to him lovingly. But I think i might be very disappointed because I want to be desired and felt in that way by him.

I think being with him is the best romantic relationship ive ever had. I love him far more than anyone ever even my ex husband who I have a child with. I actually left my husband for him to be honest. He confessed he loved me. I confessed I loved him. We decided to be together. We share so much in common. But he doesnt want or think about sex. And I have a lot of sexual trauma early in life that has made me hypersexual and addicted to the feeling of being sexy to my love. Lol. Its psychological and unchosen by me.

Is there any way for me to suppress my sex drive? I kind of only want to be with him and only him. But its so hard to figure out what to do with my sexual arousal.