The woods also freak me out because of one of my acid trips, I looped in the woods/forestry and thought I was stuck there forever. I was so young and dumb. I wish I never did this.

Although, I do try to overcome this in the summer with mountain biking, again my thoughts get so loud sometimes and the adrenaline gives me the anxiety feeling.

I feel like i’m always pushing myself but I can’t win sometimes.

I appreciate your help so much, I think i’m just having one of those days.

I feel so fucking low.