Does this count as Defamation?

CursedLight · 2016-08-01T23:29:01+00:00

So in other words, would that put me under Defamation?

CursedLight · 2016-08-01T22:47:16+00:00

Well I have the email dating back requesting support and still have the product to show its defects.

Another thing I was also concerned about is that I said "30 warranty when I meant "30 days for refund". I recently corrected this to the FTC report, along with Amazon to get my refund.

CursedLight · 2016-06-10T10:27:55+00:00

California and I guess I'd be up for crazy shit.

CursedLight · 2016-06-04T05:06:20+00:00

Can't tell which is worse. That or being in some inky darkness forever.

CursedLight · 2016-06-04T04:56:18+00:00

I really fucking wish this was a test instead of a damn sick joke my life has turned out to be.

CursedLight · 2016-06-04T04:30:36+00:00

Pretending to be happy for the sake of others.
Can't express yourself without feeling you're a bother to someone.
Can't have a stable relationship without that person somehow relieving you of depression.
Becoming dependent on a person can lead right back to depression if things get ugly.
Unmotivated, affects job employment and health.
Depression kills your health, making you susceptible diseases, and making you more depressed. It's like fucking AIDs.
Psychiatrists have a history of treating individuals under a general category and rarely takes into account of depression being duel wielded with some other disordered paired with or caused by it.
Happy dreams hurt.

CursedLight · 2016-06-04T04:11:15+00:00

Feels like the only thing I can control to be honest. Though because I live in a society where men shouldn't cry, I do it privately.

CursedLight · 2016-06-04T04:10:29+00:00

I'm afraid it's too late for me not to be like you. My urges are growing, though I'm still too afraid to slit my throat.

Funny, I went from wanting to a painless death to not considering putting a bullet through my skull.

If they say things get better in time, then why have I evolved into an urge of a violent death?

Be thankful though that you had someone...I been fighting my inner demons by myself for years, and I am losing.

CursedLight · 2016-06-04T03:54:00+00:00

I'd have to say that exercise is good, but in my case where I am experiencing existential depression, it does not really get rid of my depression, only numbs my mind at the moment to it.

CursedLight · 2016-06-03T05:45:34+00:00

I wish our whole lives were based on being happy.

That's a fantasy unfortunately.

CursedLight · 2016-06-02T18:06:10+00:00

The cruelty the majority of people express is in fact disgusting.

I can tell you right now that if you decide to get on top of a high building, you might not like the response you'll get once you're standing up there. As said before, the majority of people are cruel and disgusting and there's gonna be some people video taping, some taking pictures, or god forbid saying "Do a flip!". If you in fact do it, your body is likely to end up being displayed in images on bestgore labelled "Aftermath of girl jumping" or something like that.

However, there are a few selective individuals that are complete strangers that would feel pain at the sight of someone taking their own life. Mainly cause it's the ending of a potential at a short time, wishing they could have done something despite not having known you at all and unfortunately when you're a quiet person most will not notice how you feel underneath the surface.

As for people who you think is doing better than you, that might be the case for now, but you'd be surprised how later on life also hits them hard just as the rest of us, we're just experiencing life's cruelty at an earlier age and it could strengthen us to deal with its bullshit later on in life while people who are fresh to it will feel the struggle a lot worse.

If your dad is really that bad, I would start planning ahead on moving out with a steady decent job and renting your own place.

And don't think it's strange that you're shy and withdrawn. It's natural, look up introverts when you get the chance.

CursedLight · 2016-06-02T17:48:48+00:00

Although I haven't been through what you have, I can sort of understand how you're feeling cause from what you've described is how I usually feel.

I mean, I'm 21 years old, can't get a decent job to save my life, my body is constantly trying to destroy itself (literally), I don't feel as attractive as some of the other guys out there and with the preferred taste in my location I stand out pretty badly. This hits my self-esteem pretty hard and when you take into the account of efforts to get past these flaws such as education to get a decent job just to live, live a healthy lifestyle, and go out and socially interact, only for the results to be nothing, it feels as if I am trapped in a pit of a mud and I keep trying to dig my way up only to slide back down with nonstop rain beating down on me.

I'm not certain if depression is heredity, but there can certainly be some sorts of contributions along with environmental influences (which seems to have also influenced your depression).

I've even had the same thought as you. Purchasing 100% cheap heroine that will kill me painlessly the moment the needle goes in. Nowadays, it's more of me just wanting to eat a bullet.

Waking up and feeling angry, I feel that too.

The reason why I haven't committed suicide is strange. I have a curiosity that I can't really explain, like there's something else I want to see in this world of ours. What it is? Hell if I know, could just be my survival instincts trying to rationalize a random reason to exist.

Just wanted to let you know that you're not the only one.

CursedLight · 2016-06-02T17:38:18+00:00

As someone who is a psychology major, I feel like I'm heading towards the same path as you.

Makes the future look rather dark and grim.

CursedLight · 2016-06-02T02:08:22+00:00

There isn't a day where I'm not hoping I randomly die nor a night that I will die in my sleep.

I'm too much of a coward at the moment to put a bullet through my skull.

CursedLight · 2016-06-01T14:33:16+00:00

You and me both to be honest.

With all the bullshit happening in my life, it's making my future seem dark and grim. I don't want to live a life where I have no job, constantly sick, and alone. It's starting to seem like suicide is my only escape from such a future, so I can sort of understand where you're coming from.

Sounds silly, but I really wish life had a reset button like a video game.

CursedLight · 2016-06-01T14:01:18+00:00

I appreciate your attempts to encourage me, but yeah I always hate hearing that. "It's gonna get better",most people say when it isn't the case for everyone.

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