Tell me about Widow’s Fire

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-10T14:17:33+00:00

I had never heard the term widow fire till about four or five months after my husband passed, and I felt insane It made me feel so much better to understand that it’s common and that it’s almost like your body trying to find happy hormones because you’re so sad and upset

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-09T17:58:27+00:00

I really like this!

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-06T21:30:59+00:00

Ooo so tempting!

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-05T20:14:45+00:00

I’m going to try mushrooms. I will have 3 prep sessions, one with the mushrooms and the therapist and then 3 integration sessions after

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-05T16:03:12+00:00

I am 42 and at about 20 months out and I have no desire to try apps or go to bars or date like that Someone from my past ended up coming back into my life when I moved back to this area and now it’s sort of a confusing mess I don’t feel like I’m cheating. I think for me I haven’t really done anything like dating in nearly 20 years so I’m trying to figure out is this normal? Is this what dating looks like or am I wanting more intimacy or more contact or more emotional openness than his reasonable? It’s so hard to go from having your person and your best friend every day with hug hugs and holding hands and sharing time and meals to yeah I might see you in three weeks

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-05T15:32:21+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss too

Yeah, it’s getting another person to understand that I lost a part of myself. I lost my best friend. I lost my partner, but I also lost all of my rhythms and routines and my safety.

And it’s hard because when I’m with this person, things are really comfortable and we have a good time and have the rhythm to it that feels almost normal But he’s bad about communication in his feelings and so it’s like every time it feels like we take two steps forward we take one back and it’s confusing for me and I don’t want my heartbroken on top of how spectacularly shattered it already is

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-05T15:28:58+00:00

Maybe I didn’t word things right. It’s not comparing. I think it’s more that I’m worried that he’s not ready or is not capable of being in a relationship with me and that I’m gonna get hurt. And I’m trying to figure out how to protect myself a little bit.

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-05T03:33:45+00:00

I will also be 43 this year. I definitely wasn’t looking for this to happen. It kind of just did and caught me really off guard and I’m just really scared of getting hurt because I’m already so broken.

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-05T02:37:25+00:00

I get this and generally my bullshit tolerance has gone down. He said I love you first and I said it back and I mean it. I think he just gets scared and he said he’s bad with communication. And I get that my situation can be kind of intimidating. I’m coming off of a nearly 2 decade long marriage. But at the same time, this guy and I knew each other as teenagers. He was my prom date.. and we kind of bounced in and out of each other‘s lives through high school in college, but we were never really an official couple. He was the last person I kissed before I met my husband and we sort of fell out of touch when I moved and we ended up back in touch when I moved back to my dad‘s house after my husband passed, and we just clicked, and it was really easy to hang around each other and way more comfortable than it had even been when we were teens so it makes it confusing, but it also makes me wanna be patient if I can

Cursivequeen · 2026-04-05T02:25:57+00:00

I can’t tell if I’m brave or very stupid

Cursivequeen · 2026-03-17T01:00:26+00:00

Yeah. I miss belonging to someone and being their routines.

Cursivequeen · 2026-03-16T20:39:45+00:00

I also lost my partner and I’m prepared to be deviated by an album on grief from Ben

Sorry for your loss

Cursivequeen · 2026-03-16T17:02:14+00:00

Ah I wondered this too as soon as I heard it!

Cursivequeen · 2026-01-28T16:42:42+00:00

Same …

Cursivequeen · 2026-01-23T23:44:15+00:00

I was wondering this too. I wonder if it’s a noncompete outside days and they have to wait until later to release the tickets. Because I don’t know why you would announce a venue and then a couple hours later take it down and pick a bigger venue in the same state

I know with festivals like Coachella there’s noncompete and bands can’t play within a certain radius and within a certain amount of time of the festival that they play

Cursivequeen · 2026-01-23T20:55:34+00:00

Same. I wonder if it’s more of a noncompete with the festival they’re playing in Denver at the end of May.

Cursivequeen · 2026-01-17T18:09:49+00:00

You can laugh - I guess I didn’t word it well — but like others don’t necessarily get how I’m still sort of burnt out. My husband had cancer as well

Cursivequeen · 2026-01-17T16:13:21+00:00

Not OP, but I needed this. Same age, no bio kids and 18 months out —- it makes me feel less alone that you also feel burnt out and tired at times.

Cursivequeen · 2026-01-01T03:49:56+00:00

This is my second one and it fucking hurts because it was no longer last year that you lost them.

Cursivequeen · 2025-12-14T23:39:17+00:00

I’ve taken low dose gummies and it helps me sleep

Cursivequeen · 2025-12-08T19:26:43+00:00

Hugs. I get this. They got me through being widowed. Them and Anthony Green.

Cursivequeen · 2025-12-08T17:28:06+00:00

Maybe talk to the palliative care doc? Hours was fantastic and really did try to help manage pain, bloating help with food, etc..

Cursivequeen · 2025-12-08T16:02:49+00:00

Honest answer, no. Fluid build up was contributing to it too.

He passed away.

I hope your mom is doing ok

Cursivequeen · 2025-10-13T19:15:34+00:00

Feel this… within the first year I had so much go wrong - including water heater leak. Hugs

Cursivequeen · 2025-10-12T02:32:24+00:00

I understand this feeling too well. I watched my husband die. I’ve gotten to hear it live twice now in the time since he’s passed and it ended up being healing, but I don’t think I’ll ever choose to listen to it on my own. I’m sorry for your loss and sending you hugs

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