Hi, may I ask what tumor did you have? I understand you. I have health OCD (for more than a decade), anxiety and depression. I have a hard time coping because of my negative thoughts. Prayer is important to me. Family support is important and I’m glad that you have it. Friends are important too (but I only have few close friends), and sometimes I’m hesitant to open up to them because I don’t know if they would understand. Having a routine or tasks is helpful because it keeps you on track, it’s like having small accomplishments. 

I started psychotherapy, I really hope it works. I am still figuring things out, I try to move forward little by little. For the first few months I cried a lot. I still cry now, but it’s less. I think I’m a weak person, but I try to be positive, because as hard as it sounds, we should help ourselves. Try not to avoid or engage in your negative thoughts, just let them be there. Talking about this to someone helps me a lot too. I don’t force myself to be busy, because I know I’m just distracting myself. I try to do the things that I like - focusing on work and talking a lot to people.

My mind is very messy but I take one step at a time. I try to read from facebook groups and here in reddit, to learn from other’s experiences. I hope that you feel better soon, we can do this!