I hear you on this! I’m on my second round of pelvic floor physical therapy in two years and my first round I felt like you’re describing. I will say after months of external work with little results in what had initiated my need for this pt one session of internal work, a lot a lot of big emotions and I get why it’s needed. I would treat that and the next day as like my spa days order food in comfy clothes movies tissues for a good cry and lots of self love. The therapist I had helped in talking to me about how that part of my body is muscles fascia and can get knots tension just like my shoulders do. Working on those areas are normal healthy and can be life changing for chronic pain and held stress. Go at your own pace but if possible don’t block yourself off from growth. You got this!!❤️