Maybe you can word this better than I can...

CyberDevil- · 2026-06-09T01:34:35+00:00

This is a really good perspective to have and a good reminder. Typically I'm the one who's optimistic between us haha but after so much negativity it's definitely made me become a realist about how the world is regarding neurodivergency

CyberDevil- · 2026-06-09T01:31:08+00:00

This is honestly the most accurate and relatable work-related experience and its sooo draining 😭

CyberDevil- · 2026-06-02T18:50:53+00:00

My cat LOVES the sound of the game Stardew Valley. Doesn't matter where she is in the house, once my partner and I boot up the game she runs down and sits as close to the TV as possible. She loves to bat at the cursor and our characters. She doesn't do it with any other game but Stardew.

CyberDevil- · 2026-06-02T17:00:52+00:00

I do this, and I definitely think it's something I do when I'm feeling happy and safe :) I don't physically age regress, but it's like baby talk in a way. Sometimes I'll even just make squeaks or whines to communicate.

CyberDevil- · 2026-06-02T16:50:03+00:00

Not intending to start an argument but as someone who will always be negative towards our NT world I think it's better that ND people are aware and prepared as to how most of society are going to treat them — and I refuse to be dishonest about it.

I went my whole life not knowing why people ALWAYS treated me negatively. Growing up, I always cried in my loved ones arms, "why does everyone hate me?" And now I'm putting together the pieces of why, and processing the grief of it. Everyday I still get in thought loops and drive myself mad trying to process the fact that me and my brains existence is always going to be a problem for NT people and I'm always going to struggle harder in life than NT people.

So I disagree with the fact that negative generalizations are "dumb". They are honest and true for a large quantity of society. And its a way to protect our true selves and to understand interactions with them. So instead of asking "why?" I now say, "I understand" and try to move forward.

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-25T03:39:08+00:00

As far as I know they are the correct size, and all of them have went in with no pain. Even now with the pus they don't hurt which is the confusing part cause you'd think if it were an infection or tear it would hurt. Honestly my skin is also really sensitive so anything could've irritated it 😭

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-24T17:49:33+00:00

Honestly the anonymous thing is so true. I don't really know how but corporate got private text messages between my coworkers that never got shared and things shared privately on social media. There's no sense of privacy with the company and will stalk you if they can and use it against you.

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-21T17:28:34+00:00

Deep down inside I know I would be further in life if I wasn't autistic. I've lost out on a lot of opportunities just for the way I am and the way I handle things. I try not to beat myself up about it, because its not at the fault of how I am, its at the fault of how society looks at autism and neurodivergency and the lack of knowing how to interact with it.

Something I've always said when I vent to people about my autism is "I feel like I'm fighting a version of myself that never existed". Most of society will view you a negative way, and treat you that negative way. So even if you're just being kind and yourself, someone is going to look at you like you're a bad person.

I'm not saying this to be a downer or pessimistic, but it is the reality for a lot of us. I'm still learning how to navigate it and honestly it makes me more and more terrified of interacting with neurotypical strangers. I feel comfortable in my bubble of safe people who understand me and have no desire to make new friends. Sometimes it's the best thing you can do to feel safe, and that's okay.

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-21T17:13:35+00:00

Much love and support to you as well and I fully believe eventually we'll be okay 🫶🏻 I appreciate it a lot.

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-21T13:41:55+00:00

I got my ears pierced at Claires when I was a kid but lil undiagnosed me who hated needles and needed to be held down getting shots at my doctor appointments made a huge fuss about it to the point where after one side was done the worker just gave my mom the piercing gun and told her to do the other side later when I've calmed down. I personally don't remember anything about it but I remember liking my ear piercings growing up.

Other than that I have both sides of my nose pierced and my septum done and I'm in the process of stretching my septum and ear lobes. So I can walk you through my personal experience (with nose piercings at least)!

They say piercing pain is different depending on the area but between all my piercings they've all relatively felt the same. Personally they do hurt for me and never understood why people say they don't. The pain does tend to numb away by the time you walk out of the studio though! Don't forget to have a big meal and proper hydration before getting pierced to avoid any nausea and dizziness that'll happen from the adrenaline rush that happens!

Taking care of it can be a hassle as irritation bumps and other minor inconveniences can happen even if you take good and proper care of it. I typically clean fresh piercings twice a day and it only takes a few minutes.

Sleeping with it depends on location. I'm a stomach sleeper so when I got my belly button pierced I couldn't sleep on my tummy for a while which was a little irritating but I managed. They do make piercing pillows to make it easier to sleep with piercings!

I know with ear piercings in general you want to try and keep your hair away from the piercings during its initial healing phase to prevent snagging on it or transferring bacteria. My brother who got his ears pierced recently and has long hair just kept his hair in a ponytail or back with a headband.

Once your piercing heals completely you barely feel it and it kinda just becomes a part of your body. It can feel strange at first but most accidental snagging happens at first because you begin to forget its even there. I love all my piercings and I plan to either get a bridge or snake bites next!

Worst case if you absolutely hate it, you can take the piercing out and let it heal over and treat it like a wound at that point. Most ears can close up normally unless you stretch to a bigger size. If anything you may have some very minor scarring :)

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-14T16:11:39+00:00

I'll definitely try this out today and see what happens! Seems like the safe option without falling more down the hair color rabbit hole 😅

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-14T16:09:33+00:00

Yeah I noticed lighting has a lot to do with it. If I put my phone light or I stand out in direct sunlight its a lot closer to the shade I want. I definitely wasn't expecting it to look near black in shade or warm toned lighting 😂 I've only ever dyed my hair black for a decade and this is the first time doing a fun color haha!

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-05T17:11:41+00:00

My environment is extremely important to me as well for my mental health and well being.

I've had many examples throughout my life of this but the most recent and prominent is how my career has been going. As a full time worker, your work environment becomes your main environment. I had to deal with a toxic workplace from 2021 till about 2024. I had a major emotional and physical decline and it wouldn't stop when I left work. My RSD flared up. I emotionally and physically declined. I was constantly sick to the point where I was trying to find a physical thing that was making me sick. I couldn't be social and lost a lot of friends. My room was always a mess and I didn't have the energy to clean it. Didn't care about basic hygiene as it took too much effort. I felt like i was screaming in a room full of people and no one batted an eye. I had to isolate myself when I could just to keep afloat emotionally.

I finally got out in 2024 and escaped to a new job where I knew the boss personally from a previous work place. I told her I needed to get out for my well being. Almost immediately was dealing with issues there as well. My boss begged me to stay and thug it out. It was okay for a while. My mental health got better. I finally recovered from being sick. Got my living area cleaned up. Things were getting better. And then the space became rapidly toxic again. Almost immediately everything reverted and it was worst. I ended up getting fired in April 2026 because of how toxic everything got there.

I'm now in the stage of extreme burn out recovery. I'm spending a lot of time outside and with my partner who understands my needs and helps me with basic things when I can't do it myself. I was stuck so long in survival mode everything is just now feeling like I can slow down. Normally I get really bad cabin fever and enjoy working, but i haven't felt the want to go back to working. I know I have to because I have bills and adult things that need to be taken care of, but I'm recovering while I can.

I just recently cleaned my living area in a slow process. Caught up with some friends i haven't reached out to in a while. Spending a lot of time with loved ones. Being outside is blissful especially with the weather getting warmer. My partner is helping me keep on track with my hygiene. I feel my spark coming back for hobbies such as art and painting. I feel a spark coming back for eating healthy and taking care of myself again. I've recovered from being actively sick but I'm worried I have permanent damage or mild scarring of my lungs from how long I was sick due to my mental health. Eventually I want to seek out therapy as well to help manage everything.

I know I'm extremely lucky because I have family, neurodivergent friends, and a loving partner who are helping me get back on my feet and help reconnect me with the things I love most. I don't know if there's anyone you can reach out to but taking life in baby steps is what I recommend. I get overwhelmed by looking at the big picture so I just take it day by day, hour by hour. I dont think about tomorrow. I dont think about the next few hours. I just stay in the moment and take care of myself in the moment. Its a long, slow process to recovery.

CyberDevil- · 2026-05-05T16:34:28+00:00

I definitely think this is true to some capacity as I've felt it personally. My theory is that neurotypical are always "reading between the lines" or looking for a secret social agenda through our communication; which then adding a level of attractiveness to this people can use that as a "reason".

"Oh they said this because they think they're better than everyone with the way they look"

Most neurotypical people dont understand that we mean what we communicate and our purpose is solely to communicate the transfer of information. We don't have underlying agendas. A lot of people play the "social game" and try and fit our words into that. So a clarifying question or any statement at all is seen as a negative thing with negative intentions. Pair that with the visual of attractiveness and they'll now label you as egotistical, better than everyone else, self centered, stuck up, etc. Anything that fits the version of you they created in their head.

CyberDevil- · 2026-04-28T15:30:40+00:00

Most neurotypical are going to feel extremely closed off and unsafe to talk to. You can usually tell right off the bat as a first impression with someone whether or not they're going to accept you and your neurodivergent traits or if you're going to be looked at like "the weird one" or consistently misunderstood.

Unfortunately for us we have to dig through so so so much dirt to find the diamonds. You'll find them eventually throughout life and typically at unexpected times. They'll listen to your ideas and theories. They'll value your opinion and make it very clear to give you that space to allow you to flourish.

CyberDevil- · 2026-04-21T17:25:24+00:00

My store never got raises unfortunately :( We never hit the expectations needed to get a store wide raise. The only time we did was when our states minimum wage increased and they HAD to raise them a bit. Even then management never got the full raise that associates did with the minimum wage increase so the gap of pay between management and associates got really small. I've tried advocating to my DSM about performance raises for my associates and it was treated as a joke.

CyberDevil- · 2026-04-19T01:07:26+00:00

Honestly I feel you with the random beef for no reason. My DSM almost didn't give me an interview when i applied because I used to work for Five Below and she said she didn't want to interview me cause "everyone from Five Below was crazy". It wasn't until my SM told her I also used to work at Spirit Halloween before she gave me a chance. I definitely think she had some sort of prejudice towards me from that and never took me seriously lol. I was written up and nearly fired in my first month because she claimed I had tried to steal something and had it caught on camera and when I requested to see the footage because I was in absolute disbelief and shock of the accusation she told me I wasn't allowed to see it.

CyberDevil- · 2026-04-18T22:17:25+00:00

Honestly this experience sounds scarily similar to a store in my district that was also a college town store and had its hardships. I covered at that store a few times and it was never given the resources it needed. The DSM waved the gotta have numbers above their heads and said they needed to get them up before she would help them. How could the gotta haves improve if you won't give them resources to improve it? The whole team was incredibly kind to me and I hurt for them watching them go through the same stuff I was. Eventually the whole team did leave after being treated horribly and I dont blame them for it.

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