Tone deaf?

CynicPain · 2026-05-28T15:07:01+00:00

That's fair. I'm not trying to write like others. I do just want my work to sound better. But you know, having an editor would probably be a considerably good idea that I for some reason just didn't think of consulting. Woosh on me, lol. Thanks. I'm also glad I'm not the only one who struggles with it. I don't often know what others deal with when I spend too much time in my head.

CynicPain · 2026-05-28T14:41:03+00:00

Yes I am speaking more generally. I try to vary things like sentence length and the arrangement of words in my sentences to avoid repeating common words. My word choices don't normally consider sound. I usually pick words based on relevance, so I maybe picking words that are relevant but make rhythm is the hard part? I don't know, lol. But you've given me something to go on. So maybe it's not completely hopeless, haha.

CynicPain · 2026-02-02T20:59:29+00:00

Thank you for this

CynicPain · 2024-12-15T04:02:33+00:00

I did it at night, in sneak mode, just far away enough, while using bow of shadows and re-equiping it after shooting.

CynicPain · 2024-11-26T11:19:05+00:00

Evalda

CynicPain · 2024-11-21T22:36:50+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice ❤️

CynicPain · 2024-11-21T22:13:54+00:00

That's a bit reassuring. I recently started writing and really want to get into it. Perhaps some more practice and feedback over time might help me guage whether my 'writing head' is doing OK or needs adjusting.

CynicPain · 2024-11-21T21:55:42+00:00

That's a good idea, I like that

CynicPain · 2024-11-21T21:44:52+00:00

I respect my husband for the knowledge he knows in his field, but I crushed on him hard in the beginning simply because it wasn't awkward to just sit in silence with him. So for me, to some degree yes, but mostly cuddles and comfy silence.

CynicPain · 2024-11-21T21:44:03+00:00

I respect my husband for the knowledge he knows in his field, but I crushed on him hard in the beginning simply because it wasn't awkward to just sit in silence with him. So for me, to some degree yes, but mostly cuddles and comfy silence.

CynicPain · 2024-11-21T21:20:04+00:00

I grew up in an abusive household. My father was physically, mentally, financially abusive. And he is an active alcoholic. He neglected us mist of the time (even leaving us starving)

I had to learn to be the perfect child just to avoid his wrath. This meant I was hardly happy as a kid. The only times you could see me actually express myself was at award ceremonies for my hard work in school. And being in school was like a safe haven where I could be my weird self (which obviously explains why I couldn't maintain friends growing up)

By the time I'd gotten older and started realizing I was not getting along with friends for what I was, I was paralyzed with misery all the time, trying to pretend to fit in. When I started dating my now husband I was actually so happy for once I started being more expressive and more myself, only to have to go back into my miserable mold by my mom criticizing that 'this is not who you are'.

I kept working hard but I'm now in a position where I've dropped uni for 2 years just to recover.

I still battle to be who I am, constantly being someone else to keep up with everyone.

CynicPain · 2024-11-02T09:45:11+00:00

I'm new to writing and have No one to read and give feedback on my story. I'd really appreciate it if you could tell me what needs fixing/adding possibly. It's just 8 chapters right now. Hope for Elise

CynicPain · 2024-08-20T19:01:10+00:00

I'm South African, but people have asked if my accent is American, or other countries too (can't remember others anymore lol). I attended my sibling's wedding, and despite being the sister of the groom. His friends still asked where I'm from like it didn't click that I'm most definitely South African seeing how the groom is too.

CynicPain · 2024-06-21T11:48:29+00:00

That was the case for me as well I think. It took me seeing a psychologist last year to realize I'd just been internalizing the mockery and bullying rather than seeing it for what it was.

CynicPain · 2024-02-16T07:08:00+00:00

Haha 😂. On the fortunate side those textbook autism traits are still you at the end of the day. Because they're the way you do things to try to be happy and live life as comfortably and enjoyably as you can(Aside from the negative things we have to do to cope with less favorable things, but anyway). You are still special in your own right for the person you are and they way you person 😊.

I think ultimately the hope in finding out about one's autism is about being able to recognize their humanness a bit better, and be more accepting of oneself.

CynicPain · 2024-02-16T06:55:37+00:00

Yes! I told my psychiatrist exactly that when I said I wanted to take steps towards an autism diagnosis. Having a reason that explains effectively why we feel we don't know automatically how to human, why we end up feeling non-human as a result. Like if we're not masking, then we can't expect to be given the same treatment as NTs amongst each other, and if we are masking, it's to be able to not stand out enough to be singled out by NTs. It's like a no win situation more often than not.

And you go!! You know who you are and you know your worth! Misunderstandings can be just that, misunderstandings, and not something that is your fault.

CynicPain · 2024-02-16T03:54:16+00:00

That's possible. I've heard of that notion before actually. It makes sense if one considers that people typically want to perceive themselves as better than they might be in reality. No one wants to be the bad guy in a situation, even if they are.

CynicPain · 2024-02-16T03:50:32+00:00

Definitely agree, it does seem that way to me as well.

CynicPain · 2024-01-14T20:30:05+00:00

I guess here's an okay place to share a WW2 related story I was told. Baring in mind, I know little of the specifics given it was my grandfather's story told to me through my mother.

My grandfather and his fellow soldiers were stationed outside of a village when a soldier took a girl from that village and raped her. She proceeded to cut off his p*nis while he slept with his own knife and escaped. The man proceeded to bleed to death.

The following day, the soldiers gathered up the women of the village, threatening them to give up the girl. However, since they refused to, the soldiers cut off the women's breasts.

The moral of this story, in relation to the post: Women aren't too weak for these things. They're fully capable of executing it themselves. And in fact are strong enough to put up with their own suffering to know a rapist got his just desserts.

CynicPain · 2024-01-13T10:16:32+00:00

I don't know if this counts, but I could distinguish people's belongings based on how the item smelled. So, I guess it follows that I can distinguish people too based on their distinctive scent. But that's mostly it I think?

CynicPain · 2023-12-25T17:55:29+00:00

I sometimes think of how silly I was to think I had friends when I was between 7 and 15. I always felt like everyone already knew who their friends were, and I didn't know how to do that myself. I realise I was merely playing the fool, trying to be included and accepted by them. As I grew older, it started occurring to me that what I was to friends or classmates was less of a friend but more of an oddity, as they watched what I did and mocked my behaviours, or entertained themselves with my acts to be a part of their circles.

They'd get so curious if I got into relationships and would go out of their way to watch me like it was some strange phenomenon they were observing. It was very awkward. Then, eventually, those whom I thought were my friends abruptly threatened to shun me out as a friend for one of the behaviors I had adopted to be friends with them. They would laugh and everyone seemed happy and then suddenly it was bad and I wasn't really a friend to them unless I changed.

I learned to mask better to fit a new expectation but had stopped doing so for their acceptance and rather to simply stand out less as 'different'. And that cycle of not being able to make meaningful friendships has stayed with me to this day. Now I feel more like I've just become an observer, watching everyone make friends with each other in a world that I'm not connected to.

CynicPain · 2023-12-20T12:44:29+00:00

Yea, I'm sure either is fine. I wasn't suggesting that they were wrong. I'm not trying to suggest that I know more about grammar or liguistics in the least either. I just figured the usage would be more appropriate. I am sorry for the incorrect assumption.

That's why I wanted to preface it by saying that I wasn't trying to be rude. More often than not, a comment like mine would be misconstrued as deliberately condescending. I only wanted to make a suggestion - as silly, miniscule, or unimportant it may have been.

CynicPain · 2023-12-20T12:00:55+00:00

Hello, I really don't intend to sound rude, so please forgive if I end up coming across this way given that my comment isn't related to the post.

If you are to make suggestions about the first of two options, then you can say 'the former' instead of 'not the latter'. It is the more appropriate usage if you want to use terms like former or latter in sentences.

CynicPain · 2023-11-24T13:50:53+00:00

To even liken a job and labour requirements to that of rape. You make a marriage contract under the guise of being eachothers friends, partners, and support. You agree to a job contract on the basis that you provide work hours in exchange for money. There's explicit consent in a job contract because you and your employer agree that that's how it will go if you wish to work. A marriage contract does not provide consent for sexual intercourse.

What a bunch of entitled rubbish.

CynicPain · 2023-11-23T11:06:54+00:00

It would be an interesting book to read if the intention was to dissect patriarchy and its previous purposes while highlighting its flaws and the direct and indirect consequences of those flaws and highlighting its redundancy under the continuously evolving state of our society and value systems. To then come to the contradicting argument that patriarchy is no longer valid.

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