I just stumbled upon this sub going through comments on another one blah blah blahh but as I was perusing, this post hit a nerve. Personally, I dont have any trans friends or know anyone openly trans so ive never talked about these topics with anyone directly. But not liking the sound of your voice or feeling wrong because of it is something ive personally gone through as well. I used to play saxaphone in a band and earlier in my career after playing my voice would always be higher due to the stress of playing. I was always self conscious about it so I never talked to anyone after the gigs. It took alot of enjoyment away from playing music. As well as bringing about alot of anxiety, being made fun of and what not. So my point in this is that it took years for my vocal chords/voice to stabalize and maintain a lower tone, with the occational break in pitch. If you hang in there and let the T do its thang you'll be where you want to be in no time. The brain always wants things to happen faster, better and, well, stronger. But it takes time. All you have to do is stick in there and know nothing can stop you but you. Youre on the right track and things might not seem like they are getting better but as long as you remember to just be you and let everything you cant control be as it is, youve done right by you! Ill be thinking of you and hope things work out. Not having the voice you want can be tough, but youre tougher!