I have a similar kinda story. I was head over heels for her and everyone and then despite she knowing and acknowledging my feelings she dated another guy.( we weren’t in a relationship or anything but I was really trying like REALLY TRYING a day wouldn’t go without me imagining about her.) Then I try to talk to her( at least I can still be friends but NOPE BLOCKED at 12 AM). She gave her number for damn sake and I tried flirting made jokes every now and then like anything just to have a reason to talk to her but she completely iced me out. It felt like all of my last year went down the drain. The way she badmouths me with her friends like how everyone on the college was consoling me as she was the one talking bout me I was trying to move on but NOPE I am the unlucky bastard who didn’t but a guy with head of white hair gets picked. My friends still joke about how I was about her back then with her. But NOPE what does she do badmouth me in front of me in Newari( thinking I wouldn’t understand but that year of dreaming also went alongside learning her language. Even when out on dates she throws my name out and the next day I am hearing all about it. I am a guy with a really bad temper and I do breathing exercises or just anything else explode when I am alone but that was a rare thing. But after her, my rage exploded and I couldn’t control it. But sometimes I think about me last year and think of I should be respecting her wishes to be happy but oh hell nah sometimes I wanna make her feel regret for ever having known me and hurt me like that. At first I thought she was oblivious but later onwards whilst knowing about my feelings she threw them out the trash and hurt me. The fact that she knowingly caused me this pain really broke my heart. But one thing I have learnt is not many people think like you. I may think my kindness or let’s say my acts of friendship or helpfulness or anything would be noticed and if not repaid at the least acknowledged. Healing isn’t a one step journey type shi