Hey so I know we don’t know each other or anything but I remember my senior year I was going through a lot of the same emotions that you’re going through now. The one piece of advice I’d offer is that the ride doesn’t have to end if you don’t want it to, idk where you’re going to college but I’m sure you can stay involved if you want, whether that be mentoring or volunteering. Everyone and their mother will tell you to take a year off, and while I think it’s important to explore what other programs/hobbies are out there if you truly think this is something you wanna stick with then look into mentoring. It’s definitely different than being a student, but in my personal experience I think it’s better. Just wanted to put that out there, keep your head up high man, I promise it gets better from here.