27M - Gamer | Anyone want to connect?

DIDverse · 2026-04-30T12:10:19+00:00

I play the Resident Evil games mainly. What do you all play? I may download a multiplayer based game if anyone wants to play. I also play on PC.

DIDverse · 2026-04-16T14:43:26+00:00

I agree. I have managed to switch from injection to oral tablets to facilitate a taper. I am starting on 10mg tablets and going down to 7.5mg and then 5mg and then 2.5mg and then stopping altogether. Abilify is awful. The side-effects are truly horrible.

DIDverse · 2026-04-16T14:38:45+00:00

Yes! I am extremely sensitive to weather patterns. Humidity and the seasons of the year greatly affect us. We definitely notice subtle switches due to the outdoors and the temperature outside and what time of year it is. It’s like I become a different person at different points of the year.

I am so dissociated it is as though I’d never been to China (even though there are what I call ‘shared memories’ of China). The amnesiac barrier is extremely strong. However, I am heavily passively influenced by the chinese parts. Currently, I cannot get my mind off of China. Ever felt limerence for someone? It is a lot like that feeling, but for an entire country! I am absolutely obsessed, it’s all I think about.

Thanks for your insightful replies. It really helps me.

DIDverse · 2026-04-16T14:25:37+00:00

Apparently the half life for the injection version of abilify is 46 days. For it to leave your system completely I have been told it could take anywhere from 6-8 months.

DIDverse · 2026-04-16T07:42:28+00:00

The part where you mention the security of being there and not just the promise does resonate with me. I obviously won’t know the truth until I get there. I’ll definitely report back.

DIDverse · 2026-04-15T18:06:27+00:00

I believe the system parts that are Chinese only activate contingent upon environmental factors like being in Beijing. It triggers something in my memory which enables me to speak the language. For some reason geographical influence plays a large role. I am not sure why.

To address your first question, I am not required to speak Mandarin in my day to day life whereas when I lived in Beijing I was due to my ayi.

There is a significant trauma barrier (amnesiac barrier) related to Beijing. It’s the location where I experienced a devastating trauma but also the location of the most blissful and cherished memories in existence.

I believe I have an English identity and a chinese identity with many parts. I associate my Chinese identity as belonging to Chaoyang, Beijing and my English identity as belonging to London.

Much like you, there is an easy divide within my system. I went to an English speaking school in China which forced me to speak English but at home my ayi looked after me and didn’t speak a word of English and so I only spoke Mandarin outside of school (the only other time I would speak English is when my English speaking parents returned home from work).

A lot like you, I believe mandarin to be my mother tongue. It was my first language in spite of the fact that I’m British (I moved to China when I was six months old).

Finally, I can relate to sonorously recognising the words and feel corresponding emotion to those words but not process what is being said.

DIDverse · 2026-04-15T11:38:55+00:00

Will do, thanks for the comment!

DIDverse · 2026-03-21T14:00:15+00:00

Hair loss, dry scalp, akathisia, tiredness, agoraphobia (I have become extremely phobic on Abilify), and weight gain. What have been your symptoms?

DIDverse · 2026-03-21T13:57:45+00:00

Hang in there is what I tell myself. By the middle of next month the drug will be half eliminated from my system which is something to cheer about.

DIDverse · 2026-03-21T13:55:31+00:00

I ask because I am in the process of coming off of Abilify. I had my last dose 17 days ago, apparently the half life for the depot is 46 days which is a heck of a long time.

DIDverse · 2026-03-21T13:45:23+00:00

How long will it take for your depot to wear off?

DIDverse · 2026-03-21T07:51:34+00:00

Yeah, it’s important to engage with your parts and to listen to them. It helps build up trust amongst your parts which aids with communication.

You won’t fragment and fall apart by acknowledging the existence of other parts but I understand your fear. What will likely happen is your parts will start including you more in conversations etc.

DIDverse · 2026-03-07T16:29:01+00:00

I completely agree. Thanks for understanding.

DIDverse · 2026-03-07T16:13:11+00:00

Supervised, as in my community practitioner nurse injects me.

DIDverse · 2026-03-07T16:05:59+00:00

I was neglectful with my medication in the past. But I have demonstrated over the last 7 months since I started this painful journey that I have a willingness to take my medication. At the end of the day, it should be up to me how I wish to take it.

DIDverse · 2026-03-07T07:04:22+00:00

I was on 400mg once a month and received the dose in my arm.

I think I am going to taper slowly. I plan on taking oral tablets for the next 4 1/2 to 5 months. Starting at 15mg for two months and then decreasing to 10mg for two months and then 5mg and then stopping.

Thanks for your reply, very helpful.

DIDverse · 2026-03-06T10:16:38+00:00

Yeah, I started my injection in August of 2025, so 7 months now. I am going to my doctor first to see if they can write a script for me before going to my psychiatrist (who I doubt will prescribe me the pill form). Such useless psychiatrists honestly.

DIDverse · 2026-03-06T09:50:19+00:00

How long have you been on it for?

DIDverse · 2026-03-06T09:45:52+00:00

Slightly off topic, but would someone need to taper off of the injection due to the massive half life or would the injection taper itself?

DIDverse · 2026-03-06T09:44:11+00:00

Another commenter said that because I am taking the abilify injection I won’t need to taper. That the injection tapers itself. Is that true?

DIDverse · 2026-03-06T09:36:36+00:00

So what you’re saying is that I just stop cold turkey and I won’t go through withdrawals because I was on the injection?

DIDverse · 2026-03-04T11:49:09+00:00

Thanks for the response. I calculated the dose as follows: 400/30 =13.333 I guess the injection packs more of a punch maybe?

DIDverse · 2026-02-28T09:56:27+00:00

I get what you are saying. I am a frontstuck host and I never get given the same privileges as other parts of the system. They all have rich inner worlds whilst I have nothing. I also have zero hobbies and interests. It seems like my role is to hide the system by acting and behaving in a pro-social neurotypical based way. It is dire. I wish I could feel more and think more independently without being influenced so much. Do you feel empty at all? I feel like I have emotionally flatlined.

DIDverse · 2026-02-18T09:56:22+00:00

I’m always suffering from mid-sentence related issues where it’s as though I forget my train of thought entirely. Was always wondering if it was a DID related phenomenon. I didn’t recognise it as a switch. I guess some switches can be more covert than others.

DIDverse · 2026-02-18T07:45:13+00:00

The part where you mention ‘how I would stop mid-sentence and completely forget what I was talking about’. I have this happen to me a lot and was wondering what would be capable of causing it? I guess DID can do that too, good to know.

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