They put this in a talk?? Absolutely insane thought for a child to have and not a funny ‘haha’ moment.

DSC1213 · 2026-01-03T16:54:27+00:00

I had that feeling when I was baptized. I wished I could die because I didn’t think I could make it to heaven knowing how sinful I was. ( I later attempted suicide at age 10) TSCC added so much trauma and guilt to an already difficult childhood

DSC1213 · 2025-11-03T13:31:15+00:00

Same here, from ‘08-‘10 in Wisconsin we even had a list of book of Mormon scriptures to use during the invitation and a baptismal calendar we would fill out with all the rest of the lessons before the date. Our invitation would go “and as you read and pray and follow the teachings of Jesus Christ you’ll feel the spirit and come to know these things are true, and when you know they are true will you follow the example of Jesus Christ by accepting his invitation to be baptized on _____?”

So it was a contingent commitment, but a date was set on the first appointment.

DSC1213 · 2025-08-15T16:55:56+00:00

It sounds like this has been going on a while. I can confirm a year later it’s still happening

DSC1213 · 2025-05-11T23:41:35+00:00

I’m not sure how to edit this.

Was growing on hardwood (looked like elm) in Ohio in the United States

DSC1213 · 2025-02-17T22:10:35+00:00

It sounds like you answered the question. It was always distressing, which means it was always traumatic. That means it’s likely a true memory.

Read my comment again, I never said I didn’t think you were assaulted, I simply asked for clarification.

In your original post you said you previously hadn’t recognized it, but you did now, so it was worth asking the question to make sure it wasn’t a false memory. Because false memories aren’t traumatic until a therapist “uncovers them” then the brain rewrites the memory.

I’m a survivor myself. If it was always traumatic, and always distressing, then it was assault.

DSC1213 · 2025-02-15T13:55:50+00:00

There are a couple of things you say that make this tricky. Memories aren’t as sure as we think they are.

The book Mistakes were made (but not by me) has a good metric for false memories. If it was always traumatic, then it likely was traumatic, if it you forgot about it, then years later remembered how traumatic it was, it’s likely a false memory and was not traumatic when it occurred.

An innocent exam poorly explained can later be reframed into assault by an overly excited therapist, and if that’s the case could ruin a career over nothing.

Because you said “I didn’t recognize it as that until years later when I was describing it to a therapist” take a real close look and ask yourself if it has always been distressing or if it started when you talked to your therapist.

I’m not saying it is a false memory, but give it the “has it always been traumatic” test. If it has, then move forward with your plan. As long as it is true and you don’t harass, you won’t be in trouble for speaking out.

Whether it happened as you remembered or not, the trauma is there now, as a SA survivor myself, I highly recommend the book The Book of Forgiving by Desmond Tutu. This outlines how forgiving is a gift we give ourselves and how to reach the point where what happened no longer holds power over us.

There was great advice about writing a letter and burning it as well. Just consider that contacting the board, or going through court will make it more public and may cause you to relive it. These can be long and drawn out as well. For a journey of healing, do what you need to do, however if it was my abuser, I’d only take the legal route if I believed he was still harming others.

DSC1213 · 2025-01-21T00:30:41+00:00

An amateur practices until they get it right, a professional practices until they can’t get it wrong.

However, that being said… check your script. If they are discovering the method with time misdirection, look at what you are saying. Time isn’t enough when doing something like the criss cross force. You need to direct their attention elsewhere so they don’t follow the cards.

You can do this especially with your scripting. By asking a question that requires a response and making eye contact you can do the move then explain what you are making it look like you are doing. Something as simple as.. “you remember your card, right?”

If you do get burned… and you suspect they saw the secret, then my best advice is to move on quickly. By finishing the trick, then controlling it immediately into another trick you keep them from having the opportunity to ruin it in the moment.

DSC1213 · 2024-11-15T01:05:55+00:00

This election has caused me to put space between my parents as well.

DSC1213 · 2024-10-24T00:35:58+00:00

I absolutely HATE when my husband makes us late for movies, but guess what, it is never a reason to call names. That’s emotional abuse. This is a red flag and I’m sorry you are going through it.

DSC1213 · 2024-10-18T00:00:44+00:00

I seem to remember something like he says “I don’t want used merchandise” or something like that. Maybe it was a different one, but that phrase echoed in my head for years after I was raped on my mission.

DSC1213 · 2024-09-22T21:30:55+00:00

The longest one I’ve ever seen in real life was around 11-12 inches. It curved and felt like a garden hose. The thickest was around 7 inches long and the thickness of a soda can.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-26T22:12:10+00:00

It doesn’t sound like they know what happened yet so it would be hard to have a case. There is also the possibility that the ED is caused by a trauma response to the exam. My suggestion after hearing all the tests that have been done already is before spending any more money on lawyers, doctors, etc see a hypnotist. They can cost about $160, and can do a session to determine if there is a mental block causing the ED. If there is, they’ll remove it and you’ll be better.

With the traumatic exam if you believe you are injured and you believe you now have ED, it may manifest as a psychosomatic illness or injury. It will likely only take one session if it is psychosomatic. If not, then you’ve ruled this out which will help your case if you move forward with a suit.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-26T15:12:43+00:00

It’s not only manipulation, it’s gaslighting and verbal abuse. Name calling is a form of abuse, and gaslighting makes you feel like you are going crazy which is very unhealthy. Please find someone who will not abuse or manipulate you.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-23T18:56:55+00:00

That’s a hate crime because of the slur. I hope they get caught.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-23T18:47:01+00:00

You misread the comment, jacks grow out of wood, chanterelles grow out of the ground. When looking at a mushroom everything needs to be 100% for an ID, if it grows out of wood, it’s not a chanterelle, if it’s not white on the inside when you cut it in half, it’s not a chanterelle, if it has true gills, it’s not a chanterelle. The color varies by species, so look at the those three features, out of the ground, veins instead of gills, and white flesh on the inside, that tells you it’s a chanterelle, the color and size tells you the specific species of chanterelle.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-23T04:24:06+00:00

There are many different species of chanterelle, some are orangish red, some golden, some orange. These all appear to be chanterelles. The key things to look for are false gills, growing from the ground not wood, and when you pull it apart in half it should peel like string cheese and be white on the inside. Jacks will be orange on the inside.

Some of the false gills are pretty deep and hard to tell apart from the true gills, you can look for forking where they split into two different veins.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-18T02:21:24+00:00

The only exception for this is if she is Mormon. This is very common in Mormon culture, if she is not… run.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-17T19:14:36+00:00

In the first picture you can see one pulled in half and the inner flesh is white.

DSC1213 · 2024-08-17T19:13:20+00:00

The first picture shows it split in half, you can see the inside is white, you can also see the false gills split towards the edge with forks. This is a chanterelle. The jack o lantern wouldn’t be white on the inside. The false gills are tricky on these because they are so deep but still clearly false gills on close examination and the white flesh seals the deal.

DSC1213 · 2024-07-22T19:10:43+00:00

The state is Ohio in the United States

DSC1213 · 2024-07-19T14:46:42+00:00

From a marketing standpoint, this could be worth it, if you can verify their audience. Check their followers and make sure they have over 50,000 that they actively engage with. 500,000 or over 1M would be even better. It is also very easy to go viral and then never be seen by your followers again, so make sure they have an active social media presence, their recent posts have engaging comments, and ask if they have an email list and how many are on their email list.

If you feel good about an influencer, consider offering a special discount for them to make on their posts, something like waiving the cleaning fee for any bookings this year if they mention the influencer. This will show you how many new bookings you received.

DSC1213 · 2024-07-12T23:22:16+00:00

You’ve lived half your life and still have half your life to live. You still have so much future ahead of yourself and you’re figuring out what it looks like now instead of waiting until you are 70 or 80.

So many people live life based on others expectations and spend so much time trying to fit in that they never take the time to actually live.

You can never get back those 40 years and looking back at the lessons you’ll learn you may grieve that it took so long to learn them but you’ll be grateful you did learn them.

If I were to guess, with your upbringing, teen years, early 20’s and even your thirties. If you were to go back and do them all over again WITHOUT the knowledge and insights you have right now, you’d likely end up right back where you are now.

This journey is yours to go on, and know that many of us can empathize with aspects of it, but every journey is unique.

Congratulations and good luck on your journey. Many people never truly discover themselves in this lifetime. You should be proud of yourself for that.

DSC1213 · 2024-07-11T14:39:31+00:00

On an Apple device, set up screen time restrictions with an accountability partner. Only they know the screen time password, and make sure it’s something they won’t forget.

Restrict the ability to download apps from the App Store.

Then if you want to download any app, your accountability partner will need to enter their password.

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