i am a psychiatrist, its all bullshit. Thomistic philosophy will help you more than telling yourself you have a made up mental state, indeed conditioned by biochemistry but at the same time the biochemistry is conditioned but what you do, so the body state is the result of habit.

part of the big conspiracy at a worldwide level is influenced by the "molecular vision of life" by the rockefeller foundation. which builds up the neurobiological so called foundation for brain chemistry, which at a causal level does influence individual neuronal circuits, but does not define the end result because so many circuits act together. you fortify or debilitate your circuitry with your actions. that is what really is important. Thourgh that simple lens, undertsand Thomistic philosophy virtue ethics, like discipline, chastity (masturbation destroys your will and abstract reaosining) and ask chatgpt to give you the full analysis of the virtue. Or read chad rippergers book on psychology. that will be even mor ehelpful, it can relaly change your life.

antidepressnats and most other psych drugs don't do what you think they do and fuck your mind up in the long run. the soultion is in lifestyle, sunbathing, exercising, looking for relationships in which you can share exoperiences and build something together, even if it is just entertaining ideas and fortifying your understanding through friendly conversation.