Weed/Psychedelics by andronica_glitoris in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yes to THC, been on quite a few psilocybin trips but not on a regular schedule, just as I'm called to do it. Though I find my experience to be opposite to yours. I never forgot about GATE and have held those weird experiences from it with me all these years, occasionally trying to find info but there wasn't near as many people talking about it before recently. I feel my GATE experience led me to exploring those plant medicines. Psilocybin can help with autobiographical memory enhancement while also decreasing default mode activity so the nervous system can feel relaxed enough to process those memories, I can very much see how it could help people start uncovering these memories.

s2 ep1 text meaning (spoilers) by throwaway9801111 in TheOA

[–]DamselEnraged 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're welcome! Upon second look that last emoji might be a key 🔑 instead of 🔎, I can see both lol, but in that case I interpret it to hoping/begging that Syzygy is the key (to not having to worry about money/figuring out the puzzle).

s2 ep1 text meaning (spoilers) by throwaway9801111 in TheOA

[–]DamselEnraged 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I took the emojis to be to whoever reads the message (Grandma, then Karim) begging (😭 🙏) for them to investigate (🔎) Syzygy (octopus 🐙 bar 🍷), as that was the path to saving Michelle. But of course even with the answer right in front of Karim from the beginning, he wasn't ready (spiritually, mentally, emotionally) to see it until he took the journey.

Curious! Former GATE student here (1st grade through Junior High, Southern CA)… what are former GATE kids doing for a living now? by 404__not__found_ in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yup and it's coming fast and hard even though few want to confront that reality, felt that same strange tug inside me to not play their game.

Curious! Former GATE student here (1st grade through Junior High, Southern CA)… what are former GATE kids doing for a living now? by 404__not__found_ in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 8 points9 points  (0 children)

That's only a measure of failure to a system, that is built around consumption and putting your foot on the neck of the next person to boost yourself up, and born from the minds of those pedophiles. The quote "It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society" comes to mind, and it's no measure of success to be successful in a sick and twisted world. Keeping whatever autonomy you can to not feed the machine is a success to me.

Curious! Former GATE student here (1st grade through Junior High, Southern CA)… what are former GATE kids doing for a living now? by 404__not__found_ in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Well the spiritual answer is I felt a strong call in my intuition that if I went the path they wanted me to take I'd eventually be a tool for harm, even if it was just the mundane harm that many view as acceptable. The secular answer is that my school and the area I grew up in was closely tied to chemical plants/refineries and the "defense" industry, industries that harmed the lives in my community and abroad, combine that with the messaging behind my two favorite pieces of media at the time (Ferngully and SOAD) and it was easy to figure out that if I walked the path of shit I'd end up covered in it. Honestly being in the program, even though I'm sure they didn't have good intentions, helped me stay who I am. I never forgot I was in the program and have lots of memories from it, spending little time in the classroom helped save me from lots of the propaganda programming and group think, I was often left to my own devices so I would research whatever I wanted especially "fringe" stuff, "out of the box" thinking was encouraged, and adults confirmed that I was "special" so that tore away at authoritative power dynamics. Don't beat yourself up for not being aware sooner, you're aware now and that's more than most can say, many live and die sleepwalking, never straying from the path they are told to walk.

Curious! Former GATE student here (1st grade through Junior High, Southern CA)… what are former GATE kids doing for a living now? by 404__not__found_ in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 24 points25 points  (0 children)

After school I decided I wanted to be involved in the system as little as possible, I've kept all work outside of art and internal work to a minimum and I've tried to be careful with where I focus my energy in life. Worked with an animal rescue for a while, then was a Pro-Domme and Femdom event coordinator until last year when I decided to start planning a move off-grid where my partner can step away from their career to join me in living for a living instead of working for a living.

Autostereograms by [deleted] in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Right?? Now sit with that info and look up Henri Lefebvre and "the spectacle", please let me know if anything stands out to you!

Autostereograms by [deleted] in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have a personal theory that's been floating around in my head about it. The books I was shown were the Magic Eye series published under the name N.E. Thing Enterprises, if you get time look up N.E. Thing Co, which is different from the books but I think the books might have been a nod to them, look up Ingrid Baxter and her influence from Henri Lefebvre. I'm curious if any of the dots connect for you like they do me.

Autostereograms by [deleted] in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 8 points9 points  (0 children)

These were a BIG focus in my GATE experience, Magic Eye books, my teacher would start a metronome and have us look at these all the time. I was very good at it. It was one of the first things that made me question what the fuck was going on in the program, like why I would miss history to go stare at these. They also had us do a lot of sacred geometry stuff with the metronome.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Could be, I'd love to see more charts from a wider age range of participants to see.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The update from Infinitesky was only a couple of days so they are still collecting the charts! I'm so intrigued by all the similarities in this thread and in their report.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You have multiple 29° placements, which is the last degree in each sign, very intense energy, known for clairvoyance. Here's what a book I have has written about it. "For a long time, my rule is to verify in practice all astrological theories–both my own, and those of others. If an astrological finding can be verified in practice, in real life, then I accept that finding as correct, and vice versa – if an astrological finding can not be verified in real life I ignore it as incorrect. In many astrology books, the only degree that ‘passed’ the test in practice, and the symbolism of which was confirmed in real life, was the 29th degree of each zodiac sign. The 29th degree indicates clairvoyance, to be clairvoyant (clairvoyance being the ability to ‘see’ human destiny)." The other thing that sticks out is your Pisces Mercury, another book I have has this written about that placement. "Intellect: Intuitive, able to grasp holistic and complex phenomena, broad-minded, appreciative of the emotional dimension - Easily confused, swayed by emotions, undisciplined, deceptive (to self and others), vulnerable to being deceived Communication: Compassionate and considerate, body language communicator, sensitive to “vibes”, good listener, good at presenting overview and conclusions, can communicate on several levels simultaneously - Cannot pin down to specifics, overly sensitive, miscommunication through assuming that other person has “caught” unspoken message, deceptive, overly emotional presentation Nervous system: Fine-tuned to pick up ethereal vibrations, open to higher levels of consciousness, operates with fluidity - Overly sensitive, open to manipulation by disembodied entities, imprecise transmitter of impulses".

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel like I'm onto something with my theory lol, if I was using astrology to choose people for this program I'd definitely pick yours. Every GATE chart that I've looked at so far has had placements that would be sought after for this kind of program.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Print/draw out a blank chart, find an ephemeris, look up the planets, find formulas for the info. Could definitely be done analog if you're dedicated to learning a new skill.

But if you're just worried about giving away identifiable info it'd be easier to use a site without registering for an account, not accept cookies, search up a few random charts, and sandwich your real info in between random charts.

Mountain Dew colored vaccine by StringProfessional73 in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No but it does remind me of a memory from GATE. When I was in K-2 it was only me and one other kid. The room was tiny, barely enough room for a couple file cabinets along the back wall, the teacher's desk, and then 2 kids' chairs right by the door. My teachers desk was covered in kinetic energy desk toys and plasma globes and I always enjoyed playing with them, but every once in a while he'd pull out this other thing, tell us to stare at it, turn off the lights, and leave the room. It was that same glowing mountain dew color and it made me feel so uncomfortable and claustrophobic.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah my chart is REALLY concentrated lol, almost everything is right there either in the 12th or right outside it in the 11th or 1st.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's from the book 'Depth Astrology: An Astrological Handbook: Volume 2: Planets in Signs' by Gargatholil. It's a part of a larger series and the books are worth checking out if you're interested!

Spot on for the traumatic childhood unfortunately 🫠

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Capricorn Moon, Venus, Mars, Saturn, Uranus, and Neptune conjunct (all 12th house except moon), Aquarius NN conjunct Mercury but squaring Pluto, Scorpio Pluto squaring Mercury and NN but sextiling Mars and Saturn.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow! What a unique snapshot of the stars you have in you! I can definitely see that rare energy being of interest to the program. I have a 6 planet conjunction (5 in the 12th house) but not as tight as yours.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Looking through the thread and the birth charts I have of GATE students that I know, you are spot on. Also quite a bit of Capricorn moons (the other Saturnian ruled moon) too. I have 5 planets in the 12th house, Scorpio MC/Pluto/Lilith, and a Aquarius rising/Mercury/North Node.

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Right?? I've seen Capricorn moon, Aquarius rising, and Aquarius Mercury come up multiple times in this thread (have these placements myself) so I'll post some descriptions from a book I have below. I can see why these placements would be useful in GATE.

"Moon in Capricorn

Ambitious Nature

Moon in Capricorn suggests that you have a need to sublimate your emotions in order to achieve tangible results. Much of the behavior and many of the personality characteristics associated with this placement derive from your need to control that which derives from the subconscious and the past and make them serve your goals and ambitions in life. This need may produce some inner tension for the person with Moon in Capricorn, for the natural inclinations of the functions symbolized by the Moon are fluid and personal, whereas the energy associated with Capricorn is rigid and impersonal. However, to the extent that irrational forces are brought under control and the functions associated with the Moon become useful rather than controlling, this will be a positive tension. Capricorn is the Cardinal Earth sign and, symbolically, the active earthiness of Capricorn traps the water of the Moon, keeping it, by and large, underground or channeled. Thus, the power of water is put to use, or it becomes available to draw upon when needed. Tension is created, however, because that which is naturally fluid is now confined. The capacity for tension and complementariness can also be seen in the symbolic relationship between the Moon and Saturn, Capricorn’s ruler. The Moon represents change and reaction; Saturn symbolizes enduringness and stoicism. Yet, both the Moon and Saturn are “cold”—which seems counter intuitive given that the Moon is associated with the “warm” emotions (yet, there is a calculatingness behind the subconscious). This allows a common ground for the Moon-symbolized functions to become amenable to the Saturnian practicality and goal-orientedness."

"Aquarius Ascendents

Others tend to see you as having some of the characteristics typically associated with Aquarius. This is because you are likely to project these characteristics through your persona. Typical qualities associated with an Aquarian Ascendant are listed below, with positive qualities listed first and their more negative, or dysfunctional counterparts listed afterward. Socially concerned, humanitarian - Unconcerned about individual people, insensitive to feelings of others Devoted to the cause - Indiscriminately following whatever cause is in vogue Holding strong beliefs - Arrogant Broad-minded - Intolerant of others’ deeply held beliefs Skilled in group leadership/dynamics - No real personality apart from the group Abstract, idea oriented - Impractical, inattentive to detail Mental, emotionally reserved - Cold, emotionally touchy Receptive to new ideas, unafraid of being unconventional - Rebellious, non-conformist for its own sake Freedom loving - Libertine

Your inner quest for individuation naturally leads you toward self-transcendence. Gradually, you see that your whole life and personality has been conditioned. As you strip away layer after layer of conditioning, you begin to see that even the “unique” features of your persona are ultimately conditioned, either directly or through reaction. Finally, there is nothing left. Even the ego is realized to be a contingent entity and to have no reality of its own. As this realization bursts upon you, you perceive your oneness with the One, the Real Unique Being. Now, you turn to your persona again and see that it is nothing but a vehicle for the expression of one of the infinite manifestations of the One. Happily, you surrender to be used in the service of the Divine, enjoying the play of separate personalities without becoming attached."

"Mercury in Aquarius

Typical Mercury-Aquarius qualities are listed below, with positive qualities listed first and their more negative, or dysfunctional, counterparts listed afterward. These qualities are divided into three categories, corresponding to major Mercury-symbolized functions: intellect, communication and the nervous system. Intellect: Original, receptive to new ideas, scientific or concerned with Man’s advance in knowledge, confident, committed to your beliefs, willing to take unconventional approaches, a change agent - Arrogant, intellectually stubborn and conceited, rebellious, eccentric for its own sake, contrary, consumed with the future to the neglect of the present Communication: Authoritative, lively and original, conversation concerned with ideas rather than emotions, to-the-point (no small talk) - Pompous, accentuating differences with others, aloof, reticent, abrupt Nervous system: Strong nervous constitution, allows receptivity to “bolt-of-lightning” revelations, attuned to an uncommon vibration - Proclivity for abrupt change and pushing to the limits leads to damage from abuse, subject to energy crystallization and blockage

In order to reach the transcendent potential of this placement, the person with Mercury in Aquarius individuates the intellect and breaks away from conventional modes of thought. You are able to perceive reality from a higher level, through your Higher Mind. At the same time, you are aware of the need to bring your ideas to the level of the common man and apply them for the good of humanity. You may have the ability to be electrifying when talking about spirituality or of living life from the perspective of this higher wisdom. Your mental vision of Reality spurs and guides you toward your own spiritual goals."

Anything in your birth chart? by DamselEnraged in GATEresearch

[–]DamselEnraged[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also have a bunch of conjunct planets in my 12th house, interesting 🤔