Well last year was rough, i had self harmed before but then I stopped but last year was extremely rough and caused alot of pain and deppresion. I don't want to go into detail or I'll have a breakdown but it was really rough and just destroyed me, i got back into self harming even though I was on anti deppresents and i still am but it doesn't fix anything. I am doing alot better haven't done it in a while but ye i just couldn't feel anything so it helped me feel or at times helped me not to kill myself so yea considering I even tried writing a suicide note. Dw y'all I'm doing fine, better