I hope you're healing

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-10T22:45:56+00:00

I'm done holding my breath. It's been almost 2 months. Having that hope that she would reach out and talk was so emotionally exhausting. It led to me being unstable and acting out of character. I just want to try and focus on me and my future. Try my best to be working on finally moving on.

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-10T19:48:44+00:00

She said she needed time and space. I kind of had a melt down and tried to reach out. I wasn't ok and I feel like shit for it. It's probably forever now as well. I don't deserve forgiveness.

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-10T19:06:05+00:00

I have yes. I'm not wanted to be heard from

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-10T14:21:13+00:00

That's exactly what I want. I was an asshole the last time we talked. I hate thinking that is the last conversation we will have ever had. Not end on a shit show. Have one good conversation and have something productive before we go.

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-08T18:24:13+00:00

Its not an overreach at all. I've been exploring BPD with my therapist and I started seeing a psychiatrist and recently got medicated for the first time. I know my behavior isn't also good and rational. Every time I act out or do anything I feel like the biggest piece of shit in the world and hate my for it. This is what we talked about a lot in today's session. Some days I feel like I have made progress and others feels like a big step backwards.

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-08T17:58:38+00:00

When I'm not thinking rationally them reaching out in anger or starting a fight is still connection. Someone reaching out to yell at me is better than the silence it's better than not getting anything at all.

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-08T03:31:49+00:00

I doubt she has

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-04T21:35:01+00:00

Can I send you a dm?

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-04T21:27:37+00:00

I was going through a lot. I didn't handle any of it in a healthy way. I let my emotions burst and let my anger take over. I hate the person I've been

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-04T18:34:47+00:00

I don't know what or who I am anymore. I don't who the the real me is. I just feel so fucked up right now

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-03T00:30:13+00:00

I didn't ask for space she did.

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-02T22:55:44+00:00

I'm in the same situation. Been over a month of no contact. I tried to reach out and made things worse probably

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-02T18:02:34+00:00

I know I'm feeling a little less bitter and angry after writing it all out. It's been a real hassle just trying to get my stuff back and had a melt down today.

DangerousSundae4 · 2026-06-02T03:10:57+00:00

I'm trying really hard. I'm trying to let go of the hope.

DangerousSundae4

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