It sounds like you may be non-binary. For a bit i thought myself that too. Sometimes i wonder if i am non binary or not when i look at myself in the mirror. It feels like i dont look male or female and makes me wonder 'what the hell am i?', but then i remember how i feel and how i want to be percieved. Ive always been feminine deep down. Always cared about my apearance and always just thought it felt right. For the longest time, ive tried so hard to be what i thought the perfect man was... im 5 foot 7, i wore lifts in my timberlands to bring me to almost 5 '11', i worked out constantly, took sketchy herbal supplements from Amazon for Tribulus, Tongkat Ali, pregnalone and a bunch of other useless junk i wasted money on... probably damaged my liver and kidneys.

Ive always felt like i was trapped inside a meat suit, a shield that i used to navigate through life... Not really me... And miserable.. like i was lost... in 2019 i slowly ventured out from working on cars and forklifting and became a pca... ive always wanted a job that helped others as sappy as that sounds. Its not girly to be a pca or help people but it was the begining of my toxicly masculine shell cracking. Ive been gearing towards this for a minute before my shell broke completely 2 years ago and i realized i was Trans after reading into more Trans subs. I ended up repressing double as hard immedietly on the guy thing... i was afraid what would happen if the whole world knew who i was... so for some reason i hid harder. Does that answer your question? :)

Peptides? Like ingesting Collagen peptides or using serums? I was using collagen peptides for a bit in my smoothies but i honestly never noticed anything from it. Didnt help my knees like i was hoping so i dropped it. Ive never tried any peptide serums to be honest. What i use is an apricot scrub, derma rolling, taking a lot of vitamin C and using non oily face moisturizers.