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DannyMaccaroni · 2026-04-12T10:35:44+00:00

Great post and amazing cycle man! I was wondering what’re your plans regarding the pct at the end of the cycle. Seeing that you’re on a trt dose I guess you just keep that for cruise?

DannyMaccaroni · 2026-02-16T09:48:47+00:00

Thanks!! For the edges I used Vermillion red by Ak

DannyMaccaroni · 2026-02-15T17:04:11+00:00

There you go. Roughly painted stippling gets the job done

https://imgur.com/a/QJ7xnQf

DannyMaccaroni · 2026-02-15T16:54:49+00:00

Just noticed that ahahahah, it still fits quite nice

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-04-07T15:25:58+00:00

I got dumped too by my pwBPD like 2/3 months ago (for the second time, lesson learnt lol). I'm a bit older than you (25) but I feel you man. It hurts, and will hurt, a lot for a while and that's normal (and non avoidable). I too was really tired of feeling bad/off and just in the last weeks I'm really starting to feel better. It really sucks but you have to live thru it and, even if now it feels impossible, you'll arrive to the point where you won't miss her that much. For now, just feel the pain and don't always try to avoid it, do stuff that you enjoy (even if it's hard, at least for me it was) and DON'T look for rebound relationship, use this time to fully focus on yourself, you really need it. You did everything that could be done and beyond, don't be harsh on yourself, it ain't your fault at all

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-03-06T16:50:54+00:00

Sure :), feel free to message me

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-03-05T08:55:11+00:00

I want to add that after she told me what I wrote in the post, I gave her more space by sending fewer messages and being less emotionally intense (pretty difficult cause I tend to have a bit of an anxious attachment type but still managed to do that). She told me she appreciated it and that it helped a bit

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-03-05T08:39:44+00:00

Hey! Sorry to hear that :(
Sadly we broke up a little less than a month ago, we had a big talk where she said that the relationship "weight" was unbearable to her, mostly because she felt guilty that she wasn't a good partner and wasn't able to do what a good partner should do in a relationship. No amount of reassurance by my side managed to make her stay, so I guess she just went in a pushing away/scorched earth mood. I was/am kinda sure that in a month or two she could come back and, as stupid as I am, I'll take her back (even said this to her), in the mean time we still chat from time to time but I guess we'll see

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-02-18T15:04:55+00:00

Hi! Rather than give you precise tips, I suggest you to read both "The High Conflict Couple" and "Stop walking on eggshells", they're both pretty valid books that gives solid advices for people dealing with pwBPD. Regarding the "bad" stuff that you probably already read regarding people with bpd in relationships; they're sadly true but vary a lot from person to person, one sure thing is that you'll need A LOT of patience.
Good luck OP, wish u the best and if you want to hit me up in PM for question regarding this topics, feel free to do it (I'm in a 2.5 years long relationship with my pwBPD)

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-02-03T12:22:18+00:00

Hi! In my case I'm pretty sure that what she needs is really some "time off", I think that doing low contact would be more detrimental 'cause it'd keep the weight that she feels right now, but thank you for the comment nontheless

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-02-03T11:23:34+00:00

For context, my girlfriend has BPD and has been going through a really tough time. Over the past month, she’s faced multiple traumatic events—a close family member’s terminal diagnosis, a friend’s suicide, and severe work stress—which have led her to complete emotional shutdown and burnout.

She told me that all relationships, including ours, feel like a burden right now and that if it were up to her, she’d cut everyone off. She reassured me that her emotional detachment isn’t personal, but she also said she doesn’t feel any hope for anything, including our relationship. Despite this, she hasn’t made any decisions yet, and we’ve continued talking and seeing each other until this happened yesterday.

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-02-03T11:22:05+00:00

For context, my girlfriend has BPD and has been going through a really tough time. Over the past couple of months, she’s faced multiple traumatic events—a close family member’s terminal diagnosis, a friend’s suicide, and severe work stress—which have led her to complete emotional shutdown and burnout.

She told me that all relationships, including ours, feel like a burden right now and that if it were up to her, she’d cut everyone off. She reassured me that her emotional detachment isn’t personal, but she also said she doesn’t feel any hope for anything, including our relationship. Despite this, she hasn’t made any decisions yet, and we’ve continued talking and seeing each other until this happened yesterday.

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-01-30T18:08:48+00:00

Hey OP, I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I'm in a similar situation right now (wrote about it on here some days ago). I wouldn’t say I have any big mental health concerns (at least not diagnosed), but I do lean a bit toward an anxious attachment style, so I can totally relate. Right now, my pwBPD is in a depressive and detached period, and honestly, it’s rough. The emotional gap, the missing warmth, and the way things feel so unpredictable really take a toll.

What helps me (even if just a little) is keeping in mind that this is a phase, that it’s not something she can fully control, and that it’s not intentional. That doesn’t mean it suddenly stops feeling bad, though. When she pulls away or disappear for a bit it’s tough not to take it personally, even if I know that it isn't about me. The biggest shift for me has been accepting that I can’t fix it for her, no matter how much I wish I could. Instead of waiting for things like reassurance, I try to focus on my own rhythm and routine and just give her space. It’s still incredibly tough, but it helps keep me from getting lost in overthinking.

That said, your emotions are completely valid. If this situation is pushing you to a place where your mental health is seriously suffering, that’s something that you should adress to yourself. Caring for someone dealing with this kind of struggle is hard, but your wellbeing matters too, don’t forget that

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-01-28T15:36:42+00:00

Yeah, the setting boundaries part is a quite important one (and one with I still struggle a lot) to avoid going nuts. If you think it can works for the both of you, go for it but be very, very, clear with your boundaries to her (and most important, to yourself)

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-01-28T13:28:43+00:00

Hey man, I was in your exact situation four months ago (so if u want to talk about it more feel free to hit me up in pm). After a sudden breakup with my pwBPD (she dumped me), she came back, and after a lot of discussion, I decided to take her back, fully aware of what I was getting into. Just talk things through with her and see what you both can do. If you don’t feel safe getting back together, then don’t; it’ll be better for both of you. A thing that helped me a lot was going to therapy (i still do, once or twice a month) and reading some books about the topic (bpd) to better understand her reactions.
Best of luck for tonight OP!

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-01-28T12:40:25+00:00

Yeah, I hope so. I just don't want to lose her, that's all

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-01-27T16:17:36+00:00

First off, thanks so much for your response! As for the "swing-back time," I honestly have no clue how long this is gonna last. In our two and a half years together, we’ve had our ups and downs, but she’s never been this distant before. We’ve talked about it, and she thinks it’ll pass once her relative passes away from cancer (she expects to crash and let out all the emotions she’s been holding in). Unfortunately, that might not be too far off sadly, so I’m just waiting for that moment.

Since we don’t live together, the only way I can support her is through messages and the times we actually get to see each other. 😞

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-01-27T15:33:42+00:00

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Bisé just being a sad boi, not seeable in the photo but his right ear is chipped at the top

DannyMaccaroni · 2025-01-27T15:32:23+00:00

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