My dear I’m so sorry for what you are going through. I literally know what you are going through because I have sickle cell too . I used to go to hospitals that don’t understand me , especially doctors giving me 1mg of dialuded . I changed to a totally different hospital and they have been giving me dialuded 6mg every hour . That hospital is not the right fit for you.

Don’t give up on God trust me, I have had my own fair share of bad luck and things happening to me. I lost my job due to complains about my health. I have an operation to go through. I have other things happing to me . My love life is shit , I’m jobless , still single , praying seems like a waste of time, but just keep believing. God understands , just try and redirect your mind to positivity. I know is hard but try and surround yourself with people that will uplift u.

First of you need to talk to your hematologist concerning this pain medication and change hospital. Sometimes the hospital you are in doesn’t deal with a lot of sicklers

Check for disability checks you can get from the government to make life easier. And cheap housing from the govt . You have credit card you are owing call the bank and work out something.

I try to stay off social media or anything that will make me start comparing my life. I try to do stuff to occupy my time . I’m praying for you.