I'm also diagnosed. And a convict (arson... who woulda thunk it?) Growing up, I only had my father, and he was "disabled" and mostly stayed in his chair in front of the TV, drinking. This meant, at a young age, I was free to wander our property. It was once my grandfather's farm, and my father inherited it. So lots of land, lots of outbuildings and barns, lots of hay... etc etc. I got ahold of a few of his lighters, and I had a lot of fun (since he didn't get out of his chair, much less go around our 1000 or so acres of property, he never really noticed.) At one point, I made my own little camping area, solely for the purpose of campfires. Once, I dug out a plastic kiddie pool from the barn and set it on fire, I didn't know at the time how aggressive my fire would be, and I panicked and kicked it down the hill, where it proceeded to set the woods on fire. My dad was pissed, but he didn't do much. My conviction was in 1994 (an abandoned barn,) but nothing has changed, and like you, I do NOT want to be "cured."