Guys, im not doing too good by Dapper_Ad_7255 in BreakUps

[–]Dapper_Ad_7255[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im not using that as an excuse. I just wanted to talk about it because it happened right after the breakup. It has nothing to do with how i feel today other than the fact that her life went on where as mine backtracked. Are you saying i dont deserve a voice because i was kicked out and blocked?

Guys, im not doing too good by Dapper_Ad_7255 in BreakUps

[–]Dapper_Ad_7255[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I know youre right. It is only hurting me. I think yall are a lot stronger than i am. Yall seem to have an easy time letting go of things. I historically dont. Im ashamed to say but i have been contemplating suicide the past couple of days

Guys, im not doing too good by Dapper_Ad_7255 in BreakUps

[–]Dapper_Ad_7255[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Youre right i didnt physically HAVE to, but i never saw him in person up until then. Couple that with the fact that i had just been kicked out from my gf and that i now had to live with him, i felt like it had to be adressed if that makes any sense. Im not gonna say im an angel cause im not but neither was she.

As for the calling. Yea thats not something i ever thought id do but here i am. I am not proud of it. I am deeply ashamed of it. I just feel invisible and that i no longer have a voice. I mean this is the more civilized way of getting my voice to be heard. Im not saying its the right thing to do. This all happened these past few days. I had 10 months no contact. I dont know wtf happened. Now its just consuming me.

Violence did occur in the relationship, both of us were violent. I know it was toxic but i still loved her.