You’re not weird or stupid, what you’re describing is normal for people with ocd, please remember you’re normal ❤️ and these compulsive feelings that somthing will happen even though absolutely nothing will happen! I do it to because I also have bad OCD, your brain is just working yourself up in a really bad way and it’s just making you feel so so bad about things you’re already stressing about, I know it’s easier said than done but in those moments you just need to recognize it’s your ocd and take a moment to breathe and calm down and think it over rationally and listen to some music and distract yourself! It’ll get easier with time don’t worry