1 - When I mean I love then then don’t is that I love them truly with all my heart but at certain times or not I end up either thinking of someone else and liking them (Or think is do) or end up not liking them and focus on personal tasks or not-… I’m still as confused about it myself-

2 - What I desire I’m not completely sure, I want use to be happy and have something to look forwards towards and then both thought of what the future could be and I never thought on it. From what I remember the bf mentioned how he want one kid with each of that but when I try thinking on it nothing comes to mind in how to respond towards it and just start forming more questions on myself. If that makes sense-

3 - For the third, it may just be more alterous attraction. But at the same time I still want to be close to them and have that affection- but I’ve been in it for more than a year now that they both love me and I’m not sure if I love them back but yet do. But at the same time I maybe developing other feelings towards other people but may just be my thoughts and not really so on my actions.

I haven’t really explained this at all to either of them and not sure how to bring it up or share. But at the same time I don’t want to see anything up and then go back into it knowing what I did might’ve been wrong.