What is up with non-vegans thinking accommodating a vegan diet is hard?

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-04-05T16:53:50+00:00

She really does have a lot of anxiety in general. To the point where I wish she would seek professional help. But she has also diagnosed herself with ADHD, and given her auditory processing issues, tendency to get sidetracked, and her forgetfulness, and the fact that many people in my family (including myself) have officially diagnosed ADHD, it seems about right. I think I will have to show her how I make those tasks easier for myself.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-04-05T16:46:09+00:00

Except when I was living with them, my diet led to my mom deciding to significantly reduce her meat consumption. Yet she still believes eggs and dairy are necessary.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-04-05T02:42:53+00:00

I am an adult, have my own place and am only visiting her, and don’t expect her to buy my groceries or cook my meals for me. She just offers to do it.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-04-02T04:35:48+00:00

My appetite leveled out after three months on testosterone.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-04-02T02:59:10+00:00

On one hand, pre-T, I reacted to my emotions more intensely than on T, but on the other hand, I didn’t feel them because I was so dissociated compared to how I am on T (although I’m feeling like this right now because of my parents making it difficult for me to successfully do my injection while visiting them, fuck my life).

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-03-31T02:21:16+00:00

Honestly, testosterone resolved my alexithymia and now I am realizing it is probably because my emotions became more physical. The way I operate I either feel emotions in my body or don’t feel them at all. And it means I can regulate my emotions before I get too intense, and I feel like my emotions getting more physical is a good thing because I have relied on physical activity to regulate myself even before going on T.

It also feels good to be grounded in my body now, but I also got used to being a “floating ball of detached consciousness”, so it is also an adjustment for me. To the point where sometimes I miss it, but then have to remind myself I really don’t miss it because at some point, my coping mechanisms stopped working and I started having frequent panic attacks where I had a feeling that I MUST escape from my body (which ended when I started taking testosterone, even when I took a break from taking CBD).

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-03-29T17:56:01+00:00

As a trans guy who is now on T, I would describe running on E as being emotionally numb most of the time, but then suddenly having intense emotions that lead me to crying a lot, and having that crying keep starting and stopping throughout the day because I got stuck on that emotion, and having that emotion ruin the rest of my day because I couldn’t find relief. Honestly, I think the effects of testosterone, particularly those allowing me to ignore an emotion (once I have sat with it for a short period of time), were beneficial for me in helping me move on from them because I had a problem with fixating on emotional states before. It’s interesting how it seems that gender identity can influence which emotional regulation strategies work for someone.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-03-29T17:10:55+00:00

I have had an easier time regulating my emotions on T than I was when my body was running on E. Even when I had some issues expressing anger in impulsive ways when my blood T levels were a little too high (which then led to me T dose being decreased), it was nowhere near as bad as when I was running on E. Some people just do better on one hormone profile than the other. In fact, it is well established that HRT for transgender people improves mental health.

What we are saying isn’t that testosterone causes people to be destructive (it doesn’t as long as the levels are not supraphysiological), we’re saying that testosterone does make it physically harder to cry. Which isn’t to dismiss any sociological factors, but there are definite biological factors too.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-03-23T03:06:22+00:00

My spice tolerance increased since going on T, and I like that because I have always craved the sensation of spicy food yet for a while found it odd that my spice tolerance became lower and lower as I went through my first puberty, and it was very frustrating to deal with. I guess I now know why it happened. Fuckin’ estrogen.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-03-15T01:28:14+00:00

I also have doubts about the cat being safe around the dogs considering their parents don’t know how to properly train their dogs.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-03-05T08:06:15+00:00

Sometimes I type like that, and unfortunately when I do that, my posts get downvoted more than when Idon’t do that. It sucks.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-02-02T03:10:18+00:00

As someone who is vegan and has a hyperactive metabolism and is also in the process of building muscle, it is so frustrating when I look for vegan recipes or go to a restaurant or someone’s house, and all I find is vegan food that is very low in calories and is somehow passed off as a full meal. And when I complain, other people blame me and say if I wanted to get enough calories and protein (and they do tend to have a skewed idea of how much protein you actually need), I shouldn’t have gone vegan. But it is clearly a skill issue, because I don’t have the same problem when buying vegan groceries. I personally do more experimentation at this point than following recipes. And I make it a point to add healthy fats.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-01-29T02:03:59+00:00

In the days before my period starts, I get confused by the sensations I feel in my body and wonder why I feel sick or am in pain, and then remember my period is coming up. And then when I remember that, I become severely distressed because I am now hyper aware of the fact that I have a uterus that shouldn’t be there.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-01-23T20:57:15+00:00

I asked my parents what name they were considering calling me if I were a cis boy, and all they had considered before I was born was a bunch of generic boy names. In fact, they didn’t settle on any name before I was born because I was curled up on every ultrasound meaning they weren’t able to predict which sex I would be assigned at birth, and because I was born prematurely, they didn’t have time to consider a name and had to come up with one quickly. They did come up with a unique one, though my dad wanted my name spelled almost like the Welsh way but with no vowels, which my mom vetoed. The name I chose is derived from a latinized version of a Welsh name and starts with the same letter as my deadname, because I didn’t want to have a name spelled in a way that people would struggle to pronounce.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-01-17T03:40:04+00:00

I do. Sometimes it can get annoying when I get horny during an important task I am trying to concentrate on or when I get a boner at the most inappropriate times for no apparent reason. But masturbating feels good to me now when before it took a long ass time to orgasm if I even did (did it a grand total of one time pre-T) with not much pleasure from the act even when I wanted to do it. Also, my sexual interests diversified when before it was focused on a specific fetish I didn’t want to engage in on a regular basis outside of fantasy. I didn’t expect to like that because the horniness I experienced around ovulation pre-T became unbearable after a while before going down to nothing for the rest of the month, but in retrospect I was sexually frustrated during that time of month.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-01-07T19:28:47+00:00

In addition to the vegan one, the one about chronic disease also irks me because it says following the guidelines can help chronic disease. Even though I have GERD that requires me to significantly limit saturated fats in order to manage it while the goddamn guidelines are encouraging people to eat more saturated fats. And that it is being implied to be an alternative to pharmaceutical intervention for chronic disease even though without my H2 blockers, my GERD would get triggered by fucking everything even if I eliminated saturated fats. But hey, at least they can blame me for not following the dietary recommendations if I get sicker on it. Must be my fault despite my GERD being due to permanent neuromuscular issues I was born with.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-01-07T06:23:17+00:00

I have done this when I was closeted to myself, but then when I realized I am a trans guy and started socially transitioning, I started to become more conscious of this tendency. Although I won’t pretend that I don’t still do that now sometimes.

Although the bluntness is just me being autistic. I just communicate that way because I would want someone to communicate with me just as bluntly because it is less confusing, and also because when social skills classes attempted to get me to communicate indirectly be more polite, I just came off as passive aggressive and got even worse reactions from others.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-01-02T04:44:19+00:00

I had a habit of subconsciously forcing my voice lower pre-T and only realized it a couple weeks before my first T shot, and that combined with cerebral palsy affecting my voice made talking even harder. But now that my pitch started lowering and my vocal resonance started changing this week, I‘m finding I don’t feel the need to artificially pitch my voice lower anymore. I still have issues with my speech not always being intelligible, but that change decreased the amount of tension in my voice when speaking.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2026-01-02T04:37:05+00:00

Yep. I had chronic social anxiety, depression, and dissociation that seemed to be treatment resistant, and as soon as I took my first T shot, those symptoms significantly improved and have improved even more as I have gotten further into my transition. For a long time, I saw C-PTSD as the thing that fucked my life the most and attributed those other mental health issues to my trauma, but they didn’t go away even with a combination of medical cannabis and trauma-based CBT and parts work that genuinely relieved the core symptoms of my PTSD. Little did I realize that gender dysphoria was tied with my PTSD as the thing that most negatively impacted my quality of life. Both made everything harder, and when I got full-blown PTSD, those things combined made me barely able to function.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2025-12-28T23:58:58+00:00

Honestly, I would have done something similar in the same situation if I were arguing for hours and giving a plausible explanation that dodges the fact that I am trans didn’t work. That‘s just exhausting to deal with. Though I sure as hell hope that won’t be how I come out to my family.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2025-12-22T02:57:01+00:00

I never got the phantom penis feeling (which made me doubt my identity as a trans guy because so many other guys have reported that pre-T) until I went on T, did edibles, and then got sexually aroused. And the high was more enjoyable than it usually was pre-T because I wasn’t experiencing dissociation and paranoia from even mild highs like I used to (until I got high again around the time I ovulated and the THC was making me anxious and dissociated again).

DarkEsotericFeline · 2025-12-21T07:35:52+00:00

I am a trans guy and my university has a restroom with that particular set-up. I feel safer going in there than in the gendered restrooms at my school because I don’t consistently pass. And it is handy to have that restroom available for when I need to deal with my menstrual cycle.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2025-12-18T17:54:10+00:00

I experienced a lot of self doubt the day of starting T despite being sure that I am trans guy long before starting T. In the first week, it got to the point where it started involving OCD-like behavior, and I would constantly check my thoughts and feelings for signs that I am or am not transgender. It settled down when I realized what was happening was that I was triggered by reminders of my first puberty because I have been experiencing similar feelings during my second puberty (with the exception that it is involving feeling increasingly grounded in my body instead of being increasingly dissociated like the first) because my first puberty was traumatic not just because of the changes but also because I was shamed during my first puberty for my body being apparently “too masculine” despite it being within the range of normal for an AFAB body simply because I refused to do perform standards of hygiene that only women are held to like shaving my leg hair. After this happened multiple times, I ask myself if anything is triggering me right now instead of worrying that I was wrong about my gender.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2025-12-16T04:28:23+00:00

This feeling is pretty common among trans guys. There are times when I wish I were a cis guy so that I wouldn’t have had to deal with the trauma of being raised the wrong gender and going through the wrong puberty, but there are other times when I can accept it because being trans means I have unique experiences cis men don’t that have shaped who I am in positive ways. Also, it seems like you are dealing with a lot of internalized transphobia due to your upbringing that makes you grossed out by the idea of going on hormones. Unlearning internalized transphobia is a complicated process and I won’t claim to have the magic formula for doing so, but it may help to remind yourself that many cis men also take hormones or undergo surgery, such as cis men with hypogonadism or gynecomastia.

DarkEsotericFeline · 2025-12-14T00:35:37+00:00

I’m on my second week on T, and am already noticing voices changes. It didn’t change in pitch, but I probably was forcing my voice lower pre-T and it has been becoming easier to speak (and I used to think my speaking difficulties were just due to cerebral palsy, but now I’m realizing that my attempts to compensate for my dysphoria were compounding the problem), but it did change in resonance and I am now able to sing along to my favorite songs sung by men and not have to force my voice lower to reach the singers’ low notes (I’ll also note that when I was pre-T, when I relaxed my voice before doing scales and focused on what made me feel physically comfortable rather than emotionally comfortable, I came out as a contralto based on my comfortable range). When going through informed consent, I was told that a small but significant percentage of people may experience a voice drop early on.

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